Holy fuck.. I feel.. better.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Deleted Account, Nov 30, 2020.

  1. I woke up today, got out of bed, made tea, listened to a lecture on youtube. It wasn't there, that inescapable feeling of dread, it is GONE. There is hope guys, as long as we stand there will be. I will never stop fighting, there is meaning in this suffering. We woke up for a reason. I'll keep it short because I gotta clean this mess of a house. Good luck today everyone.

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  2. Dagger323

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    That’s wonderfully encouraging to read. Bless you and good luck on your continued recovery.
     
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  3. Different Built

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    Did you come out of a flatline? How long were you in it?
     
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  4. Thank you so much, you as well friend.
    I think it started around 14 days in and just got progressively worse and worse and then suddenly it was gone and I immediately capitalized on that. Today however has been a very rough day, I've been crying and I barely ate anything. The good days like the one I described in this post are what keep me going. Someone on here said that the number 1 thing you need to know about the flatline is that it is time based. That means it WILL pass, it is just a matter of time and you just have to hold on and avoid doing stupid things.
     
  5. Finally :)
     
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  6. Different Built

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    Thanks man this helps. One day at a time and eventually we will get the super saiyan gainz
     
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    Glad to hear you are doing better man. I’ve seen some of your previous posts where you were not in such a good place and it’s great to know that those moments aren’t permanent and do lead to some thing better.

    Keep up the good fight and stay strong
     
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  8. can you explain how today was a bad day?
     
  9. Dude we have to, there's no other way. :)
    Yeah it's been rough. When you are that way it is so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, until suddenly you notice how pleasant that cup of tea is and how beautiful the leaves look outside and slowly but surely you start doing things again and finding enjoyment in the small things. How is your journey coming along?
    I woke up very fatigued and my dick felt like it was gonna fall off and my emotions were intense, like intense sadness, guilt and despair and I just started thinking to myself how I am withering in this empty room and how I am slowly decaying and becoming weaker etc. not good thoughts. Barely ate anything and pretty much laid down all day and browsed 4chan. This predicament is like a financial graph, the yearly trend is positive but there are some very deep dips and some very steep highs. Today for example I got a random erection and it caught me off guard, I had almost forgotten it was even possible.
     
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  10. Felt like it was going to fall off? Because of a hard on? If that's the case, I'd probably feel like fucking super man.
     
  11. locked boy nyc

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    Really sorry to hear you had a rough day but good for you for staying strong. As hard as it gets, it's better than the alternative, and you should feel proud and powerful for getting this far!
     
  12. Maurice, so for you as well, you only get a day or half a day of feeling good, lively dick, energetic, then back to the flatline? Depressed, hopeless, and dead dick which doesn't want to become erect! Are those the symptoms you have?
     
  13. No, I wish lol. My dick gets antarctic at times like it gets so fucking cold it feels like it's frozen or something.
    You're right, there is really no way where relapsing makes any sense. If I relapse I'm basically sentencing myself to months of hell for 5 minutes of pleasure.
    No, for me my emotions range from meh to severely depressed most of the time. Then sometimes, every once in a while I have a good day that is so good and blissful that it's almost scary. My dick is mostly dead, I have no libido, it feels really cold, I don't really get random erections. I did have like 4 wet dreams in a 2 week timespan and I occasionally wake up with a semi hard-on but that's about it.
     
  14. @Maurice00 during the flatline, don't you feel slight arousal sometimes which is very brief and shuts down quickly?
    Do you feel better in the morning where there is a chance your body is able to feel slight arousal compared to during the day?
     

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