Homosexual thoughts as a result of years of porn viewing... (How porn twisted me).

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by anjunabeats, Apr 20, 2014.


  1. i'm right there with ya pal! couldn't have said it better myself
     
    Bhola ladka likes this.
  2. LoyalKnight

    LoyalKnight Fapstronaut

    Well written. It is the porn industry who made you think like that. I can agree that I get aroused really easily as well during my time in NoFap. Sometimes even too easy, but nothing to be afraid of.

    Quit the porn, and these naughty thoughts should never appear again. You know yourself.
     
    Kris456 likes this.
  3. Nikolai

    Nikolai Moderator Assistant
    NoFap Defender

    Gee, since 11???!!! It's so awful the fact that kids begin to watch porn from such a young age! Porn is a monster...
     
    Hondaman84 likes this.
  4. age 11 is the average age. im not trying to 1up anyone but i started at age 9. for everyone reading this, you are doing the right thing and trying to stop. just keep reading these things and you'll grow out of it. if you are 13, itll be a cake walk (really easy)..

    stay classy,
    -punisher
     
  5. Matty007

    Matty007 Fapstronaut

    37
    21
    8
    How is everything going have you quit watching porn and masturbating has the gay thoughts stopped ? I'm just wondering coz I'm struggling with porn induced hocd and would just like to see how it's going
     
  6. kriss93

    kriss93 Fapstronaut

    458
    152
    43

    And how are your feelings about women? Do your heterosexual side improved? How long have you been pornfree ?
     
  7. I can tell you from experience, abstinence gets easier as time goes on. I'm over 2 years free from PMO now and there really isn't any type of porn I haven't seen legal or not and i started from a very young age like you did. If there's one thing I can be certain of is that the more you nurture a porn habit the worse it gets but on the other hand, the more you abstain the better your life gets.
     
    GK1972, Vulkan, Kris456 and 2 others like this.
  8. Blackenglish2017

    Blackenglish2017 Fapstronaut

    112
    117
    43
    Quite normal in my opinion as I watched large amounts of porn my desire to was gay porn was increased even though I'm not gay. This is what porn does. It damages people.
     
    GK1972 likes this.
  9. Thanos

    Thanos Guest

    I was passing through a phase of loneliness after breaking up with my then girlfriend six years ago. This led to my first steps towards PM addiction. After watching lots of straight porn, I started having thoughts about watching gay porn. I did and through time I discovered that what turned me on was seeing a feminine boy getting rough sex by men. Agression became very much a turn-on for me. My addiction got me to the next level this past year when I started looking for sex with such guys in gay apps. I hooked up with two twinks. But after both times I was feeling dirty and disgusted with myself. The last time I ended up crying after realising how fucked up and sad I was.

    I dont find guys hot. I had never ever had a gay thought while I was growing up. But after PM became an addiction I started finding feminine guys attractive only in porn. Even if I see such a guy on the street I dont get hard. I think it's the action of degrading and humiliating a feminine guy by fucking that became a turn on for me. Also I did not want to kiss them nor caress nor touch. Just fuck.

    I remember cruising the apps all day long trying to find the perfect twink. I was in a constant state of horniness and compulsive masturbation. I started neglecting things I had to do in order to PM and sex search. That was how fucked I got. I even started feeling pain on my penis. It was terrible.

    And you see I always thought of myself as straight. I love girls in every way, kissing, touching them, caressing them hugging... And I never wanted to be aggressive and I wasnt before my addiction. Ok I may want some rough sex at times but not like what I became later.
    Even when I had gay sex, I thought of myself as straight because I thought of myself as the man and of these guys as [email protected] I have never thought romantically of any man, gross! So I came to the conclusion that PM messed up with my sexual tastes and had a profound effect on me. Now I have quitted it for 28 days. I still have aggressive fantasies with feminine guys but they are not as strong they were. I focus mostly on girls I meet everyday.

    I will get my sexual tastes and health back from PM addiction and become a better man. I promise this to myself.
     
    GK1972, grandstand 1 and Kris456 like this.
  10. I get what you mean. I've never fucked a guy nor do I plan on it. But through watching tranny porn I've also jacked off to the thought of completely dominating, mounting and destroying a extremely feminine gay guy. Only white, Latin and asian ones though. I'm black so I couldn't imagine fucking a feminine black guy it would ruin my "high" and gross me out. I've grown to fantasize about a certain type too. The ones that are really flamboyant and wear flip flops and all have that gay haircut with the hair that hangs to the side. Those types. When my addiction to tranny porn gets bad I jack off to fucking those types of twinks I just described. I don't kiss them, or suck dick in my fantasy. But I do eat their ass and fuck them with like they are a girl and talk dirty to them. I even tell them you will finally be a girl after I'm done fucking you in my fantasy. Every fantasy is with no condom. I tend to get deep and more extreme each time. Just the thought of me showing them what a real man is and fucking them rough and treating their asshole like my personal toy is what makes me have a bigger nut. For some reason in porn I love asshole. Wether it's on a woman or a tranny. But in real life I've never had anal intercourse. (I only fuck women) it just doesn't cross my mind. I guess that's what porn is for. To get away into fantasies you wouldn't do in real life. But yea the same with me my aggression would be extremely high. And my dick would be hard to the point where it hurt...maybe that's why some straight guys do fuck gay guys. Because they let that feeling take over them. And all they wanna do is fuck asshole now. Don't let it get that far again bro. I'm sorry you let it get to the point where you went through with it. Go get tested and be safe. But my question is did you enjoy it? And would you do it again. If so. You just might have to reevaluate things.
     
    Denbert and GK1972 like this.
  11. Hondaman84

    Hondaman84 New Fapstronaut

    1
    1
    3
    ALL porn is promoting this homosexual spirt. Anal sex is promoted in all so called straight porn these days. The illumanti are trying to push this gay agenda on us men by design. It for population control I feel and no destroy what our creator has mad us. Porn is mind control. It's visual crack and it's worse than any drug u can take
     
    LoyalKnight likes this.
  12. LoyalKnight

    LoyalKnight Fapstronaut

    Well said, not sure about the illuminati bit though. All porn in promoting it one way or the other though, that is true. Even viewing naked man having sex is promoting it in a massive manner.
     
    Vulkan likes this.

Share This Page