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Honest NoFap Review - 147 Days

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by WarriorMonk, Oct 20, 2015.

  1. WarriorMonk

    WarriorMonk New Fapstronaut

    I am nearly five months into NoFap. This was unimaginable only a few months back. I have come a long way since those days when I would fail repeatedly after a few days. Many times I failed in the 20s and failed to hit the 30 day milestone. I was stuck in this cycle for a full year before I finally decided that I would give it everything.

    On my last day of university, I decided that I would fap for the last time before I launched into a do or die attempt at NoFap. I left university on 23rd May 2015 and I have not fapped since then. No, I haven't either been involved in edging even once. I have been on hard mode since day 1 and it is almost miraculous that I have survived so long. There have been some terribly tempting days but I have stuck in and refused to surrender. Sometimes, I have even wondered why, in the first place am I doing this, knowing full well that I won't, or rather can't do this for my entire life (or can I?). In those moments, the sheer 'futility' of this exercise has smacked into me given that I could easily choose to live a 'simple, normal' life by being just god-damn normal. Why torture myself?

    Anyway, the fact is that I have shown tremendous mental strength to rein in my impulses and have exceeded my expectations in this endeavour. What, if any, differences can I see between then and now?

    At first it is tempting to say that there aren't any. There are clearly no visible signs that I have turned into a superman in these five months. Most of us are never satisfied with what we have and what we have achieved. We always want more. Even though I have made a tremendous leap, the change doesn't seem apparent at first glance. One possible reason why I feel as if nothing has changed is because my desire for more is stronger. I am so absorbed in where I want to be that I don't give much value to where I am and where I have come from.

    Right now, I feel that I am pretty much the same old person, albeit some subtle, but immensely significant, changes. Somewhere, deep down, I know that today I feel much more strong and confident than I felt before. There is a quiet strength which has developed inside me. There aren't any loud, overbearing and boisterous manifestations of this in my personality, but it is there - a quiet reassurance that I can do what I want do. That I can face any hurdles; that I have it in me to conquer any obstacle before me. When I sit and think about it, I realise that I didn't use to feel this way. Yes, I still do have fears and anxieties; they are still here, they are always here. But what is new between then and now is that I now am convinced that I am strong enough.

    As well as this, in general, I am in a better mood overall. Despite having been rejected back to back for several jobs, I have not felt destroyed by it. I have been rejected but haven't felt dejected. I have felt bad about it but I haven't been depressed. At no point has it occurred to me that I am not good enough.

    As far as physical changes are concerned, it is difficult to tell. I don't know if there is more vitality in my face, maybe there is, but for that I would need to compare identical pictures of then and now (which I don't have). I do though think that the quality of my skin is better.

    I don't think there is any change in my eyesight. My energy levels are better than before and I am generally more disciplined in my day to day life. Also, this NoFap adventure has meant that porn has been eradicated from my life. I haven't watched porn since I started NoFap and this has meant that I save a lot of time, and more importantly, my mind is not clogged with visual pornographic content.

    And what about the downsides? Quite evidently, every few days there are moments of frustration over not being able to release the sexual tension pent up inside. Two out of ten days are difficult where there is a maddening urge to Fap, but eight out of ten days are easy and pose no problems whatsoever. Other than that, I can't really think of any downsides.

    So that, in a nutshell, is my review of NoFap after five months.
    Has it been worth it?

    I would say - Yes indeed.
  2. Headspace

    Headspace Fapstronaut

    Congrats man, and thanks for the honest review!
    As for me, I am planning to not masturbate anymore in my entire life. Giving in to temptation once will mean I will give in to it another time and in no time I would be back in my addictive behavior. But what temptation am I talking about anyway... I don't feel the actual need to stroke myself down there anymore, because it has ceased to be a daily habit. The sexual tension is there, but I have really learned that there is no point in releasing it that way. I need to find another way! Of course I will have sex again at some point, but this doesn't matter, it's another topic to me. (I am 100+ days in at the moment by the way.)
  3. PotentLife

    PotentLife Fapstronaut

    Congratulations on mastering your urges, WarriorMonk! I am much older than you but have been still in the cycle of hitting the 20-something day mark and relapsing before I could get to 30, except for the first streak I went on joining this site. Your story gives me hope, but also provides a healthy forewarning that, as I experienced when I did about 40 days in my first streak on this site, I may find myself stuck not appreciating the benefits if I don't do something about it.

    Perhaps you'll agree that being able to handle fap urges, letting them pass without acting on them, you can learn to handle emotions in the same way. Thus, while cultivating sobriety, clearing mental and emotional space to cultivate gratitude, joy, charisma, becomes a natural corollary.

    Thank you for taking the time to write a very nicely articulated post with a sober and informative look at this process. I wish you many, many benefits and a great job you love!
    WarriorMonk and Examined Life like this.
  4. congrats bro. . . that's a great post. . .All the best!
    getmylifeback91 and WarriorMonk like this.
  5. pakatan

    pakatan Fapstronaut

    Your post touch my heart. Beutifully & honestly written, If i have a womb, so deep it can touch my womb too. Ah.. i wish someday i'll be like you. Congrats !
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  6. slowhands

    slowhands Fapstronaut

    You hit the point here and I totally relate. Personally, my streak exactly started when I was experiencing one of the worst moments of my life (I'm sure it was the worst). Got no job and was desperately looking for it and the streak is helping me develop a bullet-proof resilience. After few weeks from the start I passed some interviews and obtained the job I was looking for, and my life completely changed its meaning. Not only for the job, nor for NoFap challenge, but simply because I started looking at my life in a different way, working more and more on positive thinking, self-reliance and resilience.

    That's why your words hit my heart and mind. NoFap is not about erasing PMO, but walking the new path of our lives.

    Congrats my friend! Be faithful and everything will be brighter and brighter.
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  7. programer

    programer Fapstronaut

    Great work. Look, your brain will try to do anything to Simply go back to it's usual State which is Pmo. Fear, Anxiety, Depression, Guilt... name them all, Will attack you to some point in time.This is what mainly makes people to relapse. The good thing though is that for after like 2-3 years, you will be normal. So, stay strong. The storm will be over soon.
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  8. WarriorMonk

    WarriorMonk New Fapstronaut

    Many thanks to all of you for your kind and encouraging words. It feels as if we are one big family, always here for each other, always pushing ourselves forward in the face of adversities. Posting here has certainly been a correct decision.

    I wish all of us many more challenges, because I know that with each other's support we will defeat each and every single one of them.
    PotentLife likes this.
  9. yosoymoi

    yosoymoi Fapstronaut

    You have really good puntuation.
    WarriorMonk likes this.
  10. Temujin

    Temujin Fapstronaut

    Thanks for this. It is a great review.
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