I've gone so low. I've hurt everyone with this. I'm a liar and cheater. I used porn behind my girlfriend's back and I did everything I could to hide it from her. We had such an open and honest relationship. We had built it back up after months and months of effort. And then she found my porn I had been hiding. Almost seven months worth. I had signed up for sites and made all these secret profiles. Everything was built on lies. We were going to be getting engaged soon. We were going to get our own place soon. But then I just had to go back to it. I just had to make accounts. I just had to get back on Reddit. I thought I could say no but the voice in my head said it'd all be fine to hide. It'd all be safe behind new accounts. It never is. It always gets found. It always causes pain. I just don't understand it. Why was this stuff created? Why does it exist? How can it? I get the gift of a cute, smart, extremely relatable girlfriend. We get along fantastically. And then this. It's not even the first time I've let porn hurt our relationship. I had done her so wrong, yet she has stayed by my side. And yet once again, we're back to square one. The cheating, the lying, the heartbreak, the sneaking and hiding.. it all has to stop. I just want to be able to say no and fix my life and pray to whoever that my relationship can be saved.