Hopeless virgin

Hello Fapstronauts,

Am a 24 years old man who started to get addicted since 17. Year by year I went from being a healthy male to a depressed and unfonctioning man. The porn really hooked me up and I didnt realize that it will cause that much of harm to me. The last 3 years were awful to my as I developed a severe PIED. The harm it made for me lift me with no choises. I have tried many medications and visited alots of doctors and they all say that am normal. The embarssment of being with a girl and having no erection at all lift my wondering, has I lost my male functionality? Will it stay like this for the rest of my life? Only this year, I came across nofab and realized the emotional problem that me and many people are facing. But, since then I have been trying very hard to stop PMO. With many attempts and relapses the maximum I reached was 10 days!! Every time it becomes worse than before and even porn is not giving me any errction at all. But I still enjoy watching and fantasying. Today, my heart lift broken as I felt really bad after being with the girl that I love and failed to have any erection. I always blame it on the stress and that its my first time, but I know that its something else. The embarrassment and fear are only worsing how I feel about myself.

Today I want to start fresh and leave everthing behind. With your help only i can reach and get my life back

 

Thank you for your positive words. I hope that I get what am seeking in this journey. Yes I have read about having a good partner can help , but am not sure if this gonna be alright as I feel ashamed to be with a girl or share her my problem.