Finn The Human
Fapstronaut
Hello Folks!
Some words about my person and my journey. I keep it short and not too boring.
Age is 38, male, browsing porn for many many years.
Noticed a clear shift towards more extreme content over the years. Needed novelty in porn content and in partners and sex practises all the time.
No real joy in sex and in general life per se.... Just chasing the next "high", the next "hit".
Since two years, luckily, I am fully committed to meditation. Still I struggle. Not so much with porn (there was one nasty binge in the last 4-5 months and that was it).
I really struggle with the PHANTASIES INSIDE MY HEAD. They keep getting me.
I am lying in bed, enjoying life. Bam, the nagging thoughts come, shouldn't I be engaging in this and that sex practice.... Aaaand I am masturbating again and feeling really down and bad the rest of the day.
Here, I am hoping to be able to give support and receive support with the challenges of GETTING A DAMN HOLD ON MY SEX LIFE!!!
My dream is a loving, caring partner with whom I can practice relaxed loving tanraish sex. Not be driven by constant extreme phantasies.
The "hard mode" challenge, meaning no porn, no masturbation, no orgasm sounds good to me, since the chaser-effect got me down a couple times now.
Wish me luck!!
Love and Hugs to all of you!!
Some words about my person and my journey. I keep it short and not too boring.
Age is 38, male, browsing porn for many many years.
Noticed a clear shift towards more extreme content over the years. Needed novelty in porn content and in partners and sex practises all the time.
No real joy in sex and in general life per se.... Just chasing the next "high", the next "hit".
Since two years, luckily, I am fully committed to meditation. Still I struggle. Not so much with porn (there was one nasty binge in the last 4-5 months and that was it).
I really struggle with the PHANTASIES INSIDE MY HEAD. They keep getting me.
I am lying in bed, enjoying life. Bam, the nagging thoughts come, shouldn't I be engaging in this and that sex practice.... Aaaand I am masturbating again and feeling really down and bad the rest of the day.
Here, I am hoping to be able to give support and receive support with the challenges of GETTING A DAMN HOLD ON MY SEX LIFE!!!
My dream is a loving, caring partner with whom I can practice relaxed loving tanraish sex. Not be driven by constant extreme phantasies.
The "hard mode" challenge, meaning no porn, no masturbation, no orgasm sounds good to me, since the chaser-effect got me down a couple times now.
Wish me luck!!
Love and Hugs to all of you!!