How about we end this...

I got 1000 reasons to stop. But I will always have 1001 excuses to not stop. Always repeating the cycle. It's not the reason that I am missing.
It's not the willpower or faith that I am missing.
It's not motivation. There is nothing that is missing.
Not even strategy...
There is no number of days that will end my struggle from one day to another day.
If I don't want to let go of it then there is no reason that will help me to go on. What if I reach 100 days and relapse again and fall deep into my old pattern. Or what if I reach 1000 days.
Does it matter if I reach day 1 or 1000 ? No it doesn't.
Because the decision to relapse can be made after 3 years or today.

So how about we end it ?

Right here and now.
I am sick of trying. Giving up doesn't make sense if you decided to win. I will win. First 10 days then 20... until I reach 100 and then I will leave NoFap. Why am I going for 100 Days ? I don't know I like the number it is connected with success. That's why. So... 100 Days... I will party at that day... if nothing bad happens.

I don't need power or wisedom to end this.
I am beyond everything this so called "addiction" can do.
I am Hope
and this is how I beat my Addiction

Thank you for reading

 

Thank you for reminding me.

 

From you, 2 months ago. Thank you!