My husbands doing the 90 day of No PMO although he had a “close call” and actually watched 20 minutes of porn... and he says he didn’t MO... but he lies... anyway that’s off the point. I was just getting sick to my stomach with how many pictures and videos I have sent him over the years of myself trying to be all sexy and playful and turn him on… And all that probably did was make him want to look at other women/girls. And that’s probably exactly what he did when he got my pictures… so now I just realized how can’t ever send pictures to him again. That’s really sad because I had some really good photos... now I want him to erase all the photos he has of me. And when I think of what he was comparing me too? Ugh... I feel like a total idiot. So this makes me think how am I ever supposed to be sexy with him? How my supposed to do different positions or blow or... just anything??? Because if this is an addiction like an alcohol addiction, Alcoholics can’t even have one drink. Sexis like one drink and will send him into full blown addiction again. How are we supposed to be intimate again at all??? .... that’s a drink, right? I mean this is assuming that I will ever get to a point where I don’t get grossed out by the look of him.