I'm a 20 years old virgin forever guy who's fed up and decided to start seeing escorts to relieve the misery. I have been on Nofap for over a month now and it has made me more empty, horny and bitter. I will just never have a relationship with a woman ever no matter what, even if i become the most attractive guy ever, women will probably be attracted to my looks due to instinct, but they'd still be repulsed by me personally. My personality just don't click with any woman out there. It's also not just the women, but i'm too mentally fucked up to have a relationship because of what i have been through and i also have zero self esteem and no confidence so i will never approach women because i know i will get rejected or cheated on eventually since most men are better than me. Women have always treated me like shit even if they don't see my face or even if they tell me that i'm handsome, but they still proceed to treat me like i'm a twisted demon, so i'm fed up with that. It's beyond hopeless for me, i don't want to dream about sex forever as a virgin, and the only way for me to have sex is through escorts and i plan to start after this pandemic ends and preferably on my 21th birthday for it to be special. But i'm completely ignorant about everything related to prostitutes, so can anyone enlighten me please?