I have a problem with furry porn/hentai. I think it might've come from a traumatizing experience I had when I was a kid. When I was about 7 or so I was on youtube quite frequently and I came across a very disturbing video that involved tentacles and beastiality. It horrified me, but soon I began to become more curious about it. I starting watching it again and again until I felt something strange in me. I think that was my first experience with sexual feelings. Around the age of 10 or so, I experienced my first orgasm. I remember what it was about, too. I can't believe ten year old me could fantasize about rape. I also started masturbating to homosexual fantasies involving animals. Pretty soon I starting watching hentai regularly. It went from that, to human porn, to furry porn, to gay porn, and finally to actual beastiality. That was around the time that my parents found out about my porn usage. I had my internet taken away from me, and a couple of times I managed to get online and masturbate to porn, but most of the time I would masturbate to fantasies inside my head. This is when I believed that I was bisexual. I resolved to quit porn after relapsing a couple of times, but it wasn't good enough. I kept on masturbating and finally I relapsed again and started watching porn. That was when I knew I had to quit. I joined nofap and successfully reached my goal of 30 days. I made it until day 56, when I finally O'd while M'ing. I resolved to keep going but I relapsed yet again today. While writing this I have experienced urges to fap and look at porn like I've never known. I won't do it. You won't take over me, you fucker. Is this what porn can do? Is this why I'm so fucked in the head? I don't have feelings for men but I sure do have homosexual fantasies. I have furry fantasies. Would I have been different if it weren't for porn? I'm only in my teenage years and I'm already super fucked up and hooked on dopamine. Everything seems to be just awful. I got diagnosed with GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and I feel like everything in my life has gone to hell. Please, please, God help me.