How did I get this fucked up..? (Trigger Warning)

Hey dude it's a guy like you from 2019. I hope your on the road to recovery cause just an hour ago today I was browsing for some furry porn as usual even though I kept telling my self I would stop. I've been like this for about 4 years. Anyways I was scrolling and then I saw porn of spike from Tom and Jerry and I immediately started tearing up a little for some unexplained reason, it got worse when I saw he was doing it with his son and then from there I just felt disgusted and stopped looking at it altogether and started to look at the more positive sides of things like I did as a kid. My advice is be a kid again for a couple of days and look at the things you used to before your innocence was ruined in the same way you did as a child and see what happens. I hope it helps!