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How Did This Happen.?.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by BBBBCLOVER, Feb 2, 2018.

How many hours in a week did you spend watching porn & masterbating?

Poll closed Mar 23, 2018.
  1. 1 to 5 hours... ok !

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  2. 6 to 10 hours... slow down .!

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  3. 11 to 15 hours... wow are you serious .!.

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  4. 16 to 20 hours... wtf you really need some help .!.

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  5. 20 + hours... Does it still even work.?.

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  1. BBBBCLOVER

    BBBBCLOVER New Fapstronaut

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    I'm a good looking white guy in my 30's & I've had hundreds of girlfriends in my life, in fact I have two of them currently too. Now I've always known that I was sexually hyper active & then I realized that I'm sexually addicted to women, which has caused a lot of problems for me over the years too. But at first I thought it was normal for a guy my age to love sex so much & then I noticed that none of my girlfriends could keep up with me sexually, so I just ended up with two girlfriends so the problem was solved. It worked out for me & most of girlfriends know that I see more than one girl, too the point I would have two living with me at the same time.

    Now I've had a lot of haters that were jealous of me & I've also had some guys telling me that they wish they were me, but when I started getting older I started wanting something more, like a family & I noticed that most of my successful friends were married with good wives. So when I would talk to girls about it they would always tell me..,
    "Ooh No I Wouldn't Marry You, No Way & I Don't Want To Have Kids Unless I'm Married Either, Now You Are What Us Girls Call Eye Candy & We All Want To Have Sex With You, But We Wouldn't Want To Marry You Tho, You Couldn't Stay Faithful & You Would Break Our Heart."
    So after a while when somebody would say that they wish they could be me, I would tell them, "Not Really You've Got A Big House, Good Wife & Kids, Basically the dream., But None Of The Girls I Sleep With Really Love Me Like Your Wife Does You, So No I Wish I Could Be You.!."
    Some of them would say , "Yeah You Say That Now, Wait Until You've Been Married For Some Years & You Realize That You're Gonna Be Sleeping With The Same Woman For The Rest Of Your Life., No I Still Wish I Could Go Do The Things That You Get To Do."

    Well,
    I guess the grass seems to be greener on the other side of the fence, no matter which side you stand on & then I had something sneak up on me that I never expected...

    About 5 years back, thru one of my girlfriends I met this older guy & he was a cool guy that we would just hang out with when we were partying. Now he was bi sexual & he had no problem telling everybody that he was, but he never hit on me tho. We had become good friends & remained so even after I stopped seeing the girl. Well after a while he started to tell me how much he wished I was into guys too & I would just shrug off his flirts, but he never stopped tho. So I don't know why or how he was able to break me down, but one night he did & I'm not going to go into details about it,
    I'm just going to say that over the next year or so I ended up in the position I've never been before & he had taken the one I've always known. I couldn't believe that something like this could ever happen to me & not only was it with a guy, it was a black guy too. Not that I'm racist, but I really wasn't even attracted to black girls &
    how did I end up letting a black guy sexually dominate me.

    So,
    I continued seeing girls, but I kept seeing him more & more until he suddenly moved away out of state, which ended all that. But then something happened, I just started cross dressing & I had never done it with him either, yet I kept getting more into it.
    Then shortly after that I began getting into sissy hypno's & interracial porn, until I needed it a few times a week. Next was craigs list & then the hook ups with big black dom's, which I dressed up for all of them too.

    Now,
    I'm not going to say a number, but it's in the double digits & every time I hook up with another one off of craigs list, the more I keep wanting too. It's got to the point where I'm actually looking for a black boyfriend, so I can hook up with him on a regular basis & had even thought about what it would be like to start taking some female hormones too.

    But it isn't like I want to make love to them, in fact I want them to use me & verbally abuse me, totally just like a prison bitch. Then after a big black Dom forces me into submission, I will do whatever he wants & I guess it has to do with all the sissy hypno's I've been watching. They've programmed me to want to be abused & to accept whatever happens to me, no matter if I liked it or not. As long as I please those superior black men with all of my body & become as sexy as I can for them, which I seem to be getting better at it too.

    These movies & video's are poison that will screw you all up sexually, I know I can't blame them for what I've been getting into sexually. But they will keep you trapped there in that sexual place where you feel lost & don't know what you want. If you are gay & you are really just into pleasing men, black men in my case, then fine go find what you're looking for & just be safe about it. Instead of sitting around spending countless hours playing with yourself & watching other people interacting with one another in a video. Sex is really meant to be shared with another person, to have an experience with each other that connects us & mainly just to have kids.
     
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  3. One of the ways I got involved with the fellowship was by reading some really great journals. Reading other's stories with their victories and even defeats is a big part of my program.

    I've included journals from all age groups, spiritual members, religious members, secular members, male and female. You should find journals that help. If not, look around, there are hundreds of others from which to choose. When I say "it works if you work it", reading journals is part of that work.

    Once you open a journal, click "Watch Thread" in the upper right of the page to get alerts when new posts are made. Here are just a few:

    @Former_CD Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/87827/
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    There are many more, and you can discover them on your own. But, these are great places to start.

    This is a work in progress. So, if a journal has changed or is no longer active, look around there are some amazing journals on here.

    * L

    PS - Starting a journal also helped me a great deal.

    The journals are listed by age groups on the forum start page. Most members run one journal only. That way both the member and others can go back and look at their journey at a later time.

    Hope to read your journal soon. Also, in your personal details you can put a link to your journal. Then, appears under your avatar.


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