BBBBCLOVER
New Fapstronaut
I'm a good looking white guy in my 30's & I've had hundreds of girlfriends in my life, in fact I have two of them currently too. Now I've always known that I was sexually hyper active & then I realized that I'm sexually addicted to women, which has caused a lot of problems for me over the years too. But at first I thought it was normal for a guy my age to love sex so much & then I noticed that none of my girlfriends could keep up with me sexually, so I just ended up with two girlfriends so the problem was solved. It worked out for me & most of girlfriends know that I see more than one girl, too the point I would have two living with me at the same time.
Now I've had a lot of haters that were jealous of me & I've also had some guys telling me that they wish they were me, but when I started getting older I started wanting something more, like a family & I noticed that most of my successful friends were married with good wives. So when I would talk to girls about it they would always tell me..,
"Ooh No I Wouldn't Marry You, No Way & I Don't Want To Have Kids Unless I'm Married Either, Now You Are What Us Girls Call Eye Candy & We All Want To Have Sex With You, But We Wouldn't Want To Marry You Tho, You Couldn't Stay Faithful & You Would Break Our Heart."
So after a while when somebody would say that they wish they could be me, I would tell them, "Not Really You've Got A Big House, Good Wife & Kids, Basically the dream., But None Of The Girls I Sleep With Really Love Me Like Your Wife Does You, So No I Wish I Could Be You.!."
Some of them would say , "Yeah You Say That Now, Wait Until You've Been Married For Some Years & You Realize That You're Gonna Be Sleeping With The Same Woman For The Rest Of Your Life., No I Still Wish I Could Go Do The Things That You Get To Do."
Well,
I guess the grass seems to be greener on the other side of the fence, no matter which side you stand on & then I had something sneak up on me that I never expected...
About 5 years back, thru one of my girlfriends I met this older guy & he was a cool guy that we would just hang out with when we were partying. Now he was bi sexual & he had no problem telling everybody that he was, but he never hit on me tho. We had become good friends & remained so even after I stopped seeing the girl. Well after a while he started to tell me how much he wished I was into guys too & I would just shrug off his flirts, but he never stopped tho. So I don't know why or how he was able to break me down, but one night he did & I'm not going to go into details about it,
I'm just going to say that over the next year or so I ended up in the position I've never been before & he had taken the one I've always known. I couldn't believe that something like this could ever happen to me & not only was it with a guy, it was a black guy too. Not that I'm racist, but I really wasn't even attracted to black girls &
how did I end up letting a black guy sexually dominate me.
So,
I continued seeing girls, but I kept seeing him more & more until he suddenly moved away out of state, which ended all that. But then something happened, I just started cross dressing & I had never done it with him either, yet I kept getting more into it.
Then shortly after that I began getting into sissy hypno's & interracial porn, until I needed it a few times a week. Next was craigs list & then the hook ups with big black dom's, which I dressed up for all of them too.
Now,
I'm not going to say a number, but it's in the double digits & every time I hook up with another one off of craigs list, the more I keep wanting too. It's got to the point where I'm actually looking for a black boyfriend, so I can hook up with him on a regular basis & had even thought about what it would be like to start taking some female hormones too.
But it isn't like I want to make love to them, in fact I want them to use me & verbally abuse me, totally just like a prison bitch. Then after a big black Dom forces me into submission, I will do whatever he wants & I guess it has to do with all the sissy hypno's I've been watching. They've programmed me to want to be abused & to accept whatever happens to me, no matter if I liked it or not. As long as I please those superior black men with all of my body & become as sexy as I can for them, which I seem to be getting better at it too.
These movies & video's are poison that will screw you all up sexually, I know I can't blame them for what I've been getting into sexually. But they will keep you trapped there in that sexual place where you feel lost & don't know what you want. If you are gay & you are really just into pleasing men, black men in my case, then fine go find what you're looking for & just be safe about it. Instead of sitting around spending countless hours playing with yourself & watching other people interacting with one another in a video. Sex is really meant to be shared with another person, to have an experience with each other that connects us & mainly just to have kids.
Now I've had a lot of haters that were jealous of me & I've also had some guys telling me that they wish they were me, but when I started getting older I started wanting something more, like a family & I noticed that most of my successful friends were married with good wives. So when I would talk to girls about it they would always tell me..,
"Ooh No I Wouldn't Marry You, No Way & I Don't Want To Have Kids Unless I'm Married Either, Now You Are What Us Girls Call Eye Candy & We All Want To Have Sex With You, But We Wouldn't Want To Marry You Tho, You Couldn't Stay Faithful & You Would Break Our Heart."
So after a while when somebody would say that they wish they could be me, I would tell them, "Not Really You've Got A Big House, Good Wife & Kids, Basically the dream., But None Of The Girls I Sleep With Really Love Me Like Your Wife Does You, So No I Wish I Could Be You.!."
Some of them would say , "Yeah You Say That Now, Wait Until You've Been Married For Some Years & You Realize That You're Gonna Be Sleeping With The Same Woman For The Rest Of Your Life., No I Still Wish I Could Go Do The Things That You Get To Do."
Well,
I guess the grass seems to be greener on the other side of the fence, no matter which side you stand on & then I had something sneak up on me that I never expected...
About 5 years back, thru one of my girlfriends I met this older guy & he was a cool guy that we would just hang out with when we were partying. Now he was bi sexual & he had no problem telling everybody that he was, but he never hit on me tho. We had become good friends & remained so even after I stopped seeing the girl. Well after a while he started to tell me how much he wished I was into guys too & I would just shrug off his flirts, but he never stopped tho. So I don't know why or how he was able to break me down, but one night he did & I'm not going to go into details about it,
I'm just going to say that over the next year or so I ended up in the position I've never been before & he had taken the one I've always known. I couldn't believe that something like this could ever happen to me & not only was it with a guy, it was a black guy too. Not that I'm racist, but I really wasn't even attracted to black girls &
how did I end up letting a black guy sexually dominate me.
So,
I continued seeing girls, but I kept seeing him more & more until he suddenly moved away out of state, which ended all that. But then something happened, I just started cross dressing & I had never done it with him either, yet I kept getting more into it.
Then shortly after that I began getting into sissy hypno's & interracial porn, until I needed it a few times a week. Next was craigs list & then the hook ups with big black dom's, which I dressed up for all of them too.
Now,
I'm not going to say a number, but it's in the double digits & every time I hook up with another one off of craigs list, the more I keep wanting too. It's got to the point where I'm actually looking for a black boyfriend, so I can hook up with him on a regular basis & had even thought about what it would be like to start taking some female hormones too.
But it isn't like I want to make love to them, in fact I want them to use me & verbally abuse me, totally just like a prison bitch. Then after a big black Dom forces me into submission, I will do whatever he wants & I guess it has to do with all the sissy hypno's I've been watching. They've programmed me to want to be abused & to accept whatever happens to me, no matter if I liked it or not. As long as I please those superior black men with all of my body & become as sexy as I can for them, which I seem to be getting better at it too.
These movies & video's are poison that will screw you all up sexually, I know I can't blame them for what I've been getting into sexually. But they will keep you trapped there in that sexual place where you feel lost & don't know what you want. If you are gay & you are really just into pleasing men, black men in my case, then fine go find what you're looking for & just be safe about it. Instead of sitting around spending countless hours playing with yourself & watching other people interacting with one another in a video. Sex is really meant to be shared with another person, to have an experience with each other that connects us & mainly just to have kids.
