This is my story of sexual attraction in my life. It all started when I was attracted by a tall man who came to install Internet connection for my house the first time, when I was 7 years old that time. I was amazed by his height. That was the beginning of my sexual life. (Yes, you didn't read it wrong, I'm a male and attracted by this man) Surprising, isn't it? I am never attracted/interested to any women/girl/female and I never masturbated on any women/female before. Whenever I look at women/pictures of them, I think my penis seem to shrink. Not very sure... After that, I had naughty thoughts such as "wow, that man is so tall", then I started to fantasize about my own body and wanted to be tall like him too. Then I jumped at school during recess time to try to achieve that goal. I seem to have naturally have the knowledge of masturbating then later and later I discovered the act of it. So, one day, after kept thinking of such dirty thoughts, my hand held my penis and keep moving it up and down and at the end felt some pleasure. It felt like so fun/nice, so I continued doing this act of masturbating (just like everyone else). This is how I began masturbating. Let me try to be simple here on what's come next: over the time, I have been masturbating/sexually attracted or aroused to stuff like: "my own body parts after I look at my own body and learnt about it", "my face with clear skin that time/no scars", "my legs with nice skin and I'm proud of its current height", "my arms skin", basically my own body (male body). Later, as time passes, I seem to be attracted to see any boy/men, especially those as the same race as me, including my self, and have dirty thoughts on their/my own body parts. The naughty thoughts would usually be "wow, their skin is so clear/nice, no scars, their teachers/parents didn't slap/beat/pinch them before", etc. I would masturbate on these. This is my main sexual attraction. Over the years until now, the dirty thoughts would be "about my own body not getting beaten, slapped,pinched by parents/classmates/teachers/etc., lack of scars as seen on my visible body parts like arms, palm", "my face is never slapped", etc.. Before doing NoFap, I used to download photos of many pictures of many teenagers boy and adult men of same race as me that I come across online (including Facebook) and saved them into a folder and masturbate on them. I also have dirty thinkings such as wishing myself 100% no scars on all body parts/never get beaten/etc. One thing weird is, why my brain seems to be not interested/attracted by any people of the opposite gender(woman) but it's instead attracted to/masturbate on stuff like that (related to/everything that I mentioned/described in the paragraph(s) above)? May I know whether it's normal or not? I get horny and get sexual/naughty/dirty thoughts only related to men/or my own body. I suspect I am maybe gay (or probably even born like that). Do you think the description as stated is considered as gay? If yes, can it be cured/healed/gay conversion? Is it a psychological problem? If so, will I ever be able to get a girlfriend, marry a woman and have children in the future when I'm an adult even if I am gay?