If anyone reads this but don't want to read it all then here is a question to which I know has no simple answer, how can I get past this? Is it even possible? I never told anyone this before but, I was molested during my childhood multiple times. It has been hard to talk about cause its painful. The person in question is no more dead and gone, don't want to talk about that person at all. I made this thread cause im tired and I feel that I should ask for help to improve cause its a pain to live with, and I got so few reasons to live I thought maybe if I improve how I feel about this then maybe other things might improve as well. I just don't know how to get over something like this, sexual abuse as a child leaves there marks, this person made me believe it was my fault and that it was something that was wrong with me. Im 34 years old now im hetrosexual male who never had sex with a woman, and I think partially why it never happened though I had many chances is due to what happened in my past. I just wish there was a way I could turn off how shameful I feel, it feels like its my fault, my selfworth is low cause of this and I realized this lately, might be the reason why i turned out how i did, not trusting people staying away.