How do i Move on

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Fapstronaut
hello....so this is my first post
uhhh..ok to make anything kind of sense I must go back a few months...or years

so I started that..stuff..when I was 12 if was MO only without the P I was confused
what were these feelings
fast forward I now know what they are
through..friends..fast forward to when I was 15...the you know what grew stronger

I craved More...and more....
I knew it was a SIN but....
those moments where the world blurs
the eyes feel like they are on fire
you heart beats heavily and you sweat keeps dropping as if your body is in tears knowing what will you do next

I completed the trio...if PMO

but then....all I felt was GUILT
and sadness and so...I kept trying for over a year and a half to quit

we Fapstronauts can see the demon lying behind the internet so I replaced my phone
the source with a dumbphone

that was November 20th.2019

now this day I am still..clean

but due to the crisis
all my education is now Online
and I need the phone

but when I got my hands in a smartphone after all that time the urges Came Back Very Very Strong
I almost fell
and I feel like I was running away
delaying the inevitable

I want to hold a phone sit on the internet knowing that I won't relapse

I want to move on
I am scared of going back to being that thing I used to be before all this

btw I am muslim in case that gives you more ideas on how do help me
cuz i dunno how I will Help myself
 
I can't lie to you
1/Marriage is the halal way to move on, of course this comes after u did everything u could to avoid destroying urself again.
2/ the haram way, and it'll bring bad impacts on u, in a society where sex out of marriage considered a crime.
U can't have that regularly and at some point that'll leads u to the alternative, and that would be memorizing and fantasizing while u know " fap fap fap fap" and here we go again, u missed.

Having strong faith can defeat anything, no one is perfect we all sinners, be patient and believe in allah and in urself.

at the mean time, focus on ur studying,hobbies, make new friends and bond with old one's
Ur family matters the most.
Stick with your prayers and read Quran it's really helpful.
I'm here for u if u need anything:)
 
Brother thanks for sharing your problem we are struggling here what we had done to ourself with porn and Fap.
There are following factors -
1. Think about your future, because this is the only reason we all are here to make our tomorrow better.
2. If your uges are hitting hard then remember Allah, start pray about your sin and good future.
3. Make yourself busy, get good sleep always remember allah if your getting urges or you see some wrong sexual image pray more and more , this is the only key through which you help youself.
4. Everyday is as important for you life so make yourself clean, make dua that's all .


Everything Gonna be Alright .
 
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