how do i unlearn teachers pet behaviour?

I sacrificed a part of my soul for being good at school because there would be a reason why they try to enforce us so badly right?

Can anyone help me?

I was never good at asserting my wants, I had to be good at everything and it was to my detriment. I can't say no because in each opportunity lies a potential for growth.

I don't even take up opportunities either because I feel I can make myself better ones.

 

It used to be drawing and YouTube success but even the nature of YouTube has changed its put me off completely

I can draw well, but it doesn't give me the same satisfaction as it once did I felt I had to become brilliant tosustain my yYouTube channel and it to pushed me into getting better but I didn't want to I was content with how I was doing...

I don't know at all man, I feel paralysed and a stranger to my emotions, can't remember the last time I felt anything genuine about anything