How do you feel after relapse?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by blunt.ever, Nov 9, 2019.

  1. blunt.ever

    blunt.ever Fapstronaut

    I would like to describe all the states that you have after the relapse that day and how long you restore your mood.
    I want more detailed answers to describe your own state with examples. In this way I will urge myself, but also those who read will remember that annoying disposition and think twice before masturbating.
  2. avatarivn

    avatarivn Fapstronaut

    The first feeling after a relapse is guilt: I honestly feel like I just made a huge mistake and pretty much, shoot myself in the foot (or in the crotch). Then the disappointment and the sadness of having to start over (even to the point of craving more porn to smooth the negative emotions raising).
    The next day is usually difficult even its a weekend, nothing seems worth getting out of bed and more often than not, for me its going through the motions of doing whatever its easier (watch a movie, video games, listening to music). The exhaustion is annoying but being a porn addict means getting used to having brain fog and having your brain stuck in first gear (thinking slow and lacking focus).

    The next seven days are a roller-coaster of depression for the first 1-2 days, followed by strong cravings the next 2 days, to finally start getting better after around 7 days (of course, as long as I hadn't relapsed even once after the first time).

    The saddest thing is, all the above is for one single relapse. Just one, no matter the porn type (vanilla or hardcore) or the progress made beforehand. I am not talking about two or more relapses on the same day nor about a binge. Its just that bad with one relapse.

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