Yes this is a serious question. I've been P and M free for 30+ days. I'm feeling very happy about this. I've got involved in SA 12 step which is extremely helpful for maintaining sexual sobriety. The challenge I'm having is that I find myself indulging other problematic behaviours. Specifically I'm drinking to much, most days, 2-3 beers. I'm not getting drunk but am definitely using this to check out at the end of the day and often find myself just waiting for that part of the day when I can indulge. Also I'm binging on sugar and chips. Ironically I eat a very healthy diet. I make myself healthy whole food meals, low carb, low sugar, organic, etc. But then will eat an entire bag of bridge mix and chips in the evening. The sugar and beer combined is making me feel like crap in the mornings. Groggy, upset stomach, etc. which is triggering. I think I'm compensating for the fact that I don't have porn as an escape, so I'm using this other stuff. It's making me feel really crappy and depressed. Like I'm just bouncing around on the dopamine rollercoaster, looking for anything to get a fix. That not indulging the P addiction is causing me to indulge other addictions. It's making me feel flawed and powerless, like I'll always be subject to the whims of my dopamine seeking mind. I've tried so hard to change my lifestyle over the years. I'm trying to have a healthy, active lifestyle. And I have been very successful in this. Making changes slowly over time. But I can't seem to get to the point where I am in control of myself so much so that I don't indulge in these problematic behaviours or live in this state of reaction all the time. If my understanding of addiction is correct, I should believe that I'm doing this to avoid experiencing uncomfortable or painful feelings or thoughts. Ok, but I'm not aware of avoiding these thoughts on purpose. So how do I feel these feelings that I'm trying to avoid? Sorry if this post is rambling and inarticulate. I'm groggy and don't have the will or time to edit it for coherency right now.