How I became a porn addict

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  1. Golgo 13

    Golgo 13 Fapstronaut

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    Some of you know me, and I know what you're thinking. "Oh no, not another thread by Golgo 13.." but hear me out. This is my story...

    It all began when I was 12. I was an innocent boy. I heard a joke from a classmate. He said "what do eye masters eat? Masturbate" I didn't know what masturbation meant. So I looked it up on the internet. :eek:
    I then went to my room and started thinking of the prettiest girl in school that I had a crush on. I masturbated to her and experienced an orgasm for the first time. It was a game changer.
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    After that I was hooked on masturbation. I really don't remember when I first watched porn, but I probably started watching porn around age 13.
    I remember when I turned 16 I was suffering the effects of PIED. I went into a 4 year long depression.
    By age 17 or so, I discovered YourBrainOnPorn. I vowed never to PMO again. I went to college at 17 and got a lot of girls, yet I still watched porn, even though I knew it was bad.
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    At 19 I discovered NoFap. Been through many relapses since then.
    Now I am 20, I WILL NOT FAIL. I'm going hardmode for 8 more months!
    I will NEVER watch porn or masturbate again. Only real women!
    I will reboot and be the happy person THAT I DESERVE TO BE! :)

    Stay strong everyone.
     
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  2. taqwa

    taqwa Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for sharing brother. We are always happy to hear from you. I believe in you. Stay strong! Win!
     
  3. L Coroneos

    L Coroneos Fapstronaut

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    "Oh no, not another thread by Golgo 13..." ;)

    I discovered masturbation about the same age as you - I was 13 and I'd heard so much about "wanking" but I thought it meant just playing with yourself. One day at school I see this guy making a "wanking" gesture with his hand. I thought, "Oh, so that's how you do it." When I got home I tried it out and pretty soon my thoughts were tending towards a pretty girl from school. Finally I cum and from then on I'm hooked, doing it every day for about 5 years (just MO) and then PMO/MO for the next few years until about age 24. I got on to drugs like clonazepam, alprazolam and methadone which made me impotent. They were a substitute for porn for me, and I felt bad about looking at porn.

    Interestingly, I discovered a book called "Practice of Brahmacharya" (Sanskrit for celibacy) at age ~19 and I put this into practice at age 24 (year 2009)... it was like my own NoFap program... before NoFap was even around. After some success with this Brahmacharya I went back to PMOing, to my eternal regret.

    Fast forward six years and I've PMOed/MOed on and off since then, and also had sex. I became impotent from MO last year and this year has been one of my most successful streaks. I'm aiming for thirty days and then three months. Wish me luck!

    Don't let those wet dreams bother you, they will go eventually if you are a committed celibate. Stay strong brother, you're doing really well and I wish you all the best.
     
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