How I cured my sexual disfunctions (ED and PIED and desensitization) and how you can to

I just relapsed.. started to M on porn, but realised what i was doing, and finished myself without P.

I am changing my behaviour:

I allow myslef to M

I won't use P

I'll see after a few weeks, how sex feels

 

I'm still relapsing on Porn.. fck that.
It s crazy how P and M makes energy an motivation go away

I start over again. No M no P, for at least a month

 

Relapsed again

 

Day four

 

I am binging again on PMO. It is because I don't have nobody to have sex with at the moment. Let's face it: PMO addiction and sex addiction are the two sides of the same coin. I never really got in a higher paradigm, that's why I am falling back into my old PMO habits.

I think that, now, I have a better understanding of the phenomenon, and I know how to really move forward.

I traded my PMO habit for a "clean-sex" drive, where I was seeing girls as "objects", I think..

This is the same energy behind it. The same frequency.

I just realized it.

I won't P anymore, and probably no M until I have sex again.

But, now, i give up on my "sex goals", I stop feeding the intellectual side of sex, and I just let things happen naturally.

I don't know if you guys will catch what I mean.

It is like an endless loop, with PMO on one side, and sex-addiction on the other side.

It comes, for me, from some kind of emotionnal issue, I would say. Like most of you, I guess.

The key is not only to avoid to so-called evil PMO cycle. It is to reconnect deeply with the people around us. And I am going to do that and let that happen now.

Sometimes it takes a looong time to finally recognize the obvious, haha.

Good luck guys.

This realization came, partly, from reading a book, which, among a lot of other things, talks about the fact that most of us have unbalanced centers: In the P addict case, it is because our intellectual center makes the job of our sexual center. Whether it is a lot of P, or objectifying girls, or seeing sex as something to achieve, it is the same: unbalanced centers.

 

I can't add a signature to my account :/. NP, 21/12 is day 0, my goal is to reach day 30 of no P, no M. Goal: 20/01!

 

Fck it, I relasped.. without and then with porn.. This shit is so addictive and feels so relieving!! Fck it...

Even if I had issues in the past with more than 5 girls, that almost got me depressed, and succesfully overcame it too, I keep coming back to it..

Our habits are so strong, it is crazy.

I know that I souldn't use porn.
M is okay, as long as it is not compulsive.

I also know that limiting M is a great way to have more energy and focus, I tried it for myself..

Here is my new rule: No P at all, no P substitutes.

M is okay, and normal.

But my life will be better without P.


I think that this a good rule for every day life.

No pressure

 

Thanks for liking my first post guys.

I am now on day 12.

During the last 12 days, i was able to have sex and to orgasm, but it was not as natural and pleasant as during y longer streaks.

That's why i am back on track.

I won't EVER watch P again, because last week i watch a speech of a ex-porn star. And here is what I realised:

Watching P does not only harm us. It helps the porn industry grow, which creates so much pain and suffering, especially for the porn stars.

THE AVERAGE LIFE SPAN OF A GIRL PORN STAR IS 35 YEARS OLD !! THEY END UP DRUG ADDICTS AND SUICIDAL.

WE ARE MAKING IT BIGGER AND WORSE BY WATCHING PORN.

DONT WATCH PORN, NOT ONLY FOR YOU BUT ALSO FOR THESE POOR GIRLS.

See you guys

 

Day 17 here.

Having my forst big urge to M.

It is natural, I spent time with a really attractive girl, and I can't get her out of my mind.

The pull is real..

I think that, under those conditions, M alone would not be a problem, would not be unhealthy.

But I decide to resist the urge, so that I can enjoy sex a lot next time I do have sex, probably in a few days..

Quite a difficult choice to make.

But I want to be sure that I don't risk a big relapse.

 

Hey guys.

It's a sad day.

2 days ago, I had sex twice with a girl. But both times, she had to M me so that I could O. I couldn't O while in her.

The reason is clear: It is because I porn-binged for a full week, about one month ago.
The weird thing is that I was able to O one week ago.. anyway.

I need to do a 30 days without any sex, again.. For the reasons explained in my first post.

It is kinda depressing: I'm back at it.. but it is my fault: I shouldn't have binged on porn during the holidays: I knew the consequences, and did it anyway..

Here is day 2 (since she M'd me).

The good old rules:
No P, no P sustitute, no M, no sex for 30 days, adn spending as much time as possible with people, and as little time as possible alone in my room, on my computer.

Here we go again.. (for the last time, because now I know the prostitution-side of porn: it is not only about me and my dick, it is about a dark buisness, that I can't take part in anymore..)

Also, I am going to get feminine friends: I think it is good to heal, and god and fun in general

See you guys