Hi Hmm it been a long time since i didnt post here but i been thinking about sharing this for a long time i hope it migth be helpful for some people First of all i just wanna tell you im not doing nofap rigth now and its been years since i last tried yet i still got rid of sissy porn addiction for the most part Rigth now im in the middle of the aftermath from my long depression that i fell in on my over 1 year streak of nofap in 2018 idk what actually casued it but i think sexual frustration played a big part in it since i not just didnt masturbate i also didnt have sex But now with a clearer mind and with the goal of trying to improving my life i started to reflect on things And i knew sissy porn finally has to go now Which is hard but from my 300+ streak i really got the congusion out my head if im gay if i actually want that lifestyle and i can tell you i wont i really am not into guys a single bit But yet me knowing that i was still masturbating to it and getting even more embaressed after it and asking myself while doing it like why the fuck i do this i dont even enjoy this So i just decided okay i stop it now just regular porn thats is and it worked very good actually and i noticed a huge increse in my happiness but there also where days i relapsed and i can tell you why because of : Stress and anixiety Everytime i have huge stress because i have to do something difficult i real life, im scared of something or embarresed because of something i wanna watch it because it helps against my stress at least for a short time I think this comes from my low self esteem and confidence i also have this big gender roles in my head like im a man i have to be strong i have to be dominant all that shit and im still a virgin and super scared of having sex of not lasting enough being to smalö being to inexpirienced what i wouldnt have when i would have sex with men And i really dont know what to do now since i dont have this stress relifer anymore i meam i can watch sissy porn but i hate it even more now i cant enjoy it i actually should face my problems but i just cant its to hard Honestly i dont know if this helped anyone i hope so but i feel like i just really wanted to get this of my chest because i cant talk about this with my friends so yeah i really hope i didnt wasted your time and if so im soory
