how is maturbation destroyed my life compeletly - lesson to be learned

i'm new here, so hello!
i'm posting this to get some support, gain some friends struggle form the same thing and give some lesson to someone who is still destroying himself.

i'm almost 30 years old, i thought this the age when you should feel at your best form all aspects but due to maturbation i'm in my worst shape ever, so let me tell you how exsessive maturbation can ruin your life like it did to mine. also if you share some of my symptoms please tell me so i know that what is happening to me is from matubation not something else.

when i was 17 years old just before starting that dirty happit, i was an athletic, gymnastic player, martial art player, smart as hell, funny, drawing and reading, fast action, speed to talk, a lot of energy and mostly happy.
then i started to discover myself, i was very much in pretty women photos, actress, model and all sort of beautiful women photography but i wasn't watching that much porn and i wasn't maturbating on it. then once did it, felt amazing and that when i started.
time goes on i was matubation maybe 3times a day and i was feeling pretty good, no exhaustion or whatsoever, feeling the dopamine rush in my head like a drugs. years goes on and i had no idea what the matubation doing to me.
i begin to feel after a year with a daily exhaustion every morning, some depression, no ability to talk or interact with people. started to lose my fun side and my motivation, i stopped practising and begin develop more bad habits, smoking and drinking coffee in morning to feel more focused.
4 years later depression kicked but was manageable compare to later stages.
at age 22 i started nofap and stopped smoking and result of that something happen to me, i met the beast, the demon aka the flatline or the withdrawal symptoms my body begin to release semen while i was sleep but with no orgam or nocturial emmisson nor wetdream, semen like water and i learn later that because prostate inflammation due to excessive matubation. later i became very unfocus, drowsy, having back pain, bone pain, exhaustion all the time, unable to leave bed. and then i started to get narcolepsy attacks (uncontrolled sleep attacks) at work. something with the dopamine recovery was making my body shutting down. huge brain fog, huge depression wave kicked in like hell, feeling like dead yet i'm alive. no ability to talk or make conversation at anytime. i got fired from work. sit a home for a year suffering and with all that happening i went back mastubation and smoking and my life was like shit. i had no idea that mastubation can do that.. all shitty forum on the internet says its healthy it can do no harm. i went physiatrists, so many!.. form antipsychosis to ssri and lots of med. thought my life will never be the same and i've diagnosed with lots of psychology conditions, depression, negative symptoms of schizophrenia, ADD and daytime drowsiness.
suffered from all that in that last 6 year, i was going crazy and yet i didn't stop mastubation but my rythm become less and i was doing it maybe every week once or twice but that wasn't enough to let me recover.
i had to take stimulation drugs just to be normal, talk or think or have energy. but even these durg are impossible to get here in my country though it save me.
i went nofap for many time and biggest time break was a month, you would feel some improvement but with one relapse you will lose all the benefits. so it seem that one need to stop once and for all and never come back to that nasty happit. i started again and it almost a month but not stopping, my dream to get back on the track and gain myself again, i'll do anything to be like i was before i started. now if i just did one time i recover in 3 days, after, just one time i feel this fogginess in head, i lose all kind of grammar and words, i feel so stupid for a week and the depression never leaves. my plan now is taking prostate medication ( important for the prostate inflammation that never recovered since it started) to avoid any ejacalltion at night or while pooping. prostate inflammation can be an obstacle if it didn't get treated right away. it's one of the main cause of the fatigue and the back pain.. i'm almost recovered from that and i feel much better on a general scale.

i need support, and if any one share some of my sufferings i hope you had some hope now and if any one have some recovering stories form similar stages, i hope you share them with me.