How is my Performance going to be?

"I intend to fuck her..."

Is she a release (so you can say you didn't fap) or is this part of a relationship building strategy with a girl that you want in your life? By your language I guess you're making her just a body to masturbate with.

I'd say you've replaced porn with a person you intend to use. Even if she's ok with that, it's not beneficial to your journey bro. And it's really not that cool, to be honest.

 

Well. I think that an important part of this journey is to realize how much porn has lowered our view of girls/women to the pornified objectification of "just a warm body to release myself into". Your language just disclosed this, by mistake. Now I myself hold a view of abstinence until marriage, but I do not hack into people for the choices they make so don't take this as me preaching to you to not have sex. Many people in this journey, even married or in a committed sexual relationship choose to abstain during their reboot, with their partner's cooperation, so they can tackle those tiny little crumbs of objectification that are left in them in order that their future sexual behavior/mentality becomes healthier.

Many times people really love their partner, but something in the relationship felt a little selfish, a little abusive. Some have even acknowledged that they have pushed around or pushed the boundaries of their partners sexually because their threshold of excitement was hijacked by pornified fantasies they thought their partners were there to meet. They actually felt like they used their partners sexually, even though this was consensual. It's sad to get to this point, not just because of what it says about your porn use and its effect, but also because you end up affecting, possibly degrading another person in the process if you don't work through this. I'm saying it because I've hurt myself and my girlfriend with my porn use.

That's why bro, more than a hot chick, she's a human being. And even if she has no expectations of respect from you, I believe that you are here for more than just being in control of your sexuality. You want to actually be a different person. A better person.

Be safe,