How it all started

this is painful to admit but it started when I was 6th grade, and it was the shit that now looking back on was the worst way to do it. I don’t know what y’all call it but it was putting pressure on my dick and using a pillow or whatever and laying on it (body pillow) and now I hear that that could fuck me up but when I was doing that I was watching Stupid stuff on YouTube that wasn’t nudes or nun but then I advanced to YouTube sex scenes from movies then to google images of porn and then gifs and one day some Porn video that I still kind of remember, then to Pornhub and then eventually was comfortable doing whatever pornhub stuff without thinking I could get hacked or nun and then most recently to sex story literotica because I really liked to know who the people where and having a sense of background and how all of that, I still wonder if that is better than video because your not seeing Porn... I’ve tried to quit now for the last 2 years or so and the last month I didn’t make it over a week now that I’m in this community I’m going for a month and then 6 then forever . I don’t want ED that some other people have got or any of that type of stuff because I’m a virgin and want to be able to just be sexual in any way with my girlfriend(I’m not allowing myself to date until I can drive, because i don’t want nobody driving us) so this is a small story of the start and progression without going into detail. Anyone similar or have any info on the problems that may occur from porn and what to keep in mind on that? I don’t want to be de-sensitized. I want be turned on by my girlfriend when spooning, and everything and that stuff that I’ve heard you might not be if you watch porn.