Low_Key_zone
Fapstronaut
That sense of helplessness, this piercing feeling that sinks deep into the body once you find yourself in this situation.
I know this feeling by heart, i've always been like this.
If we haven't met before, i'm a person with less than a few friends. Ever since i was a child, i had problems with socialization, i always tried to avoid the people around me.
Even nowadays that i'm an adult, i still feel a little bit annoyed when someone that i don't like simply walks into my life without permission.
I tried to go to therapy and perhaps i might've made some progress from that point on, but nowadays it's difficult to find people to be around me.
I recently got into college and it takes some getting used to for me adapt to this new life. Therefore, i guess i spend every single moment of my day at home studying. Which is the one thing i'm passionate about.
Regarding the studying, i've been noticing something weird recently. I've been on a good steak of NoFap, since i started using blocking softwares to restrain my internet access.
The only thing is, sometimes i look around, and there's no one around me to chat or something like that.
That sense of loneliness that comes with progress... It's not only the NoFap, but also every single thing that one can do in life.
Wether it's working out, studying, cooking, anything goes. In order to achieve progress on those areas, you gotta pratice.
The more you practice the better you get, there's only a catch: You might get so good that no one else can keep up.
That's something that've been dealing with recently: my college friends are not as interested on studying as me and most of the things that i do, are done when i'm all alone.
Since i spend most of my days at home studying, sometimes i devoid of social interactions and i know that this is gonna be harmful for my persona growth in the future.
I just can't help it, i only want to study, but sometimes i overdo it, which leads to procrastination, which leads to sadness, which leads to more procrastination as a way to cope and the cycle goes on...
I just wanted to share this with you guys, 'cause my parents would never understand, i can't afford a therapyst to talk to and my friends are not on NoFap so they wouldn't get it.
Usually, i'm a very passionated person, but today i felt so useless, as if all the things that i've been working towards were not as great as they're supposed to be and now i need to deal with some sort of impostor syndrome, or something of the sort.
Maybe i will find a few friends that i can talk to or maybe the ones that i had before will find time for me, i don't know. I just don't know how to deal with this loneliness.
I know this feeling by heart, i've always been like this.
If we haven't met before, i'm a person with less than a few friends. Ever since i was a child, i had problems with socialization, i always tried to avoid the people around me.
Even nowadays that i'm an adult, i still feel a little bit annoyed when someone that i don't like simply walks into my life without permission.
I tried to go to therapy and perhaps i might've made some progress from that point on, but nowadays it's difficult to find people to be around me.
I recently got into college and it takes some getting used to for me adapt to this new life. Therefore, i guess i spend every single moment of my day at home studying. Which is the one thing i'm passionate about.
Regarding the studying, i've been noticing something weird recently. I've been on a good steak of NoFap, since i started using blocking softwares to restrain my internet access.
The only thing is, sometimes i look around, and there's no one around me to chat or something like that.
That sense of loneliness that comes with progress... It's not only the NoFap, but also every single thing that one can do in life.
Wether it's working out, studying, cooking, anything goes. In order to achieve progress on those areas, you gotta pratice.
The more you practice the better you get, there's only a catch: You might get so good that no one else can keep up.
That's something that've been dealing with recently: my college friends are not as interested on studying as me and most of the things that i do, are done when i'm all alone.
Since i spend most of my days at home studying, sometimes i devoid of social interactions and i know that this is gonna be harmful for my persona growth in the future.
I just can't help it, i only want to study, but sometimes i overdo it, which leads to procrastination, which leads to sadness, which leads to more procrastination as a way to cope and the cycle goes on...
I just wanted to share this with you guys, 'cause my parents would never understand, i can't afford a therapyst to talk to and my friends are not on NoFap so they wouldn't get it.
Usually, i'm a very passionated person, but today i felt so useless, as if all the things that i've been working towards were not as great as they're supposed to be and now i need to deal with some sort of impostor syndrome, or something of the sort.
Maybe i will find a few friends that i can talk to or maybe the ones that i had before will find time for me, i don't know. I just don't know how to deal with this loneliness.