How long can a nightmare last?

Rodrigomarques

Rodrigomarques

Fapstronaut
Hi guys,

I've been addicted do porn since I was 16 years old, today I'm 29. It all began when I started to have acess to high-speed internet. I remember back then, when I was in high school, all my classmates were going to parties and started dating with girls, and on the other hand, I was just longing for the weekend so I could be alone at home, and watch porn and masturbate like crazy. I didn't know that this could turn into a terrible addiction.

As I grew older, the addiction has goten worse. In the beggining of it, I could just ejaculate once per day, however as the years passed by, I could "blow it up" over 3 times. So during just one week, I could masturbate over 10 times!

Today, I realize how many years of my life I've wasted not only with pornography, but also with creating fake profiles on Tinder and Instagram, because I've never kissed a girl nor had sex with a real woman, so I needed to find a way to have naughty conversations with women, even if I had to make a fake profile on social medias in order to accomplish it.

Unfortunately, nowadays I see women as objects that I need to get in order to have sex with. Besides, the way that I see their bodies has changed
significantly. Today, the women who arouse me are the ones who have huge breasts and big lips like the majority of the porn actresses.

I simply can't take it anymore. I don't wanna waste another whole fucking year of my life watching porn, masturbating or objectifying women. Wasting 13 years is more than enough to me.

I don't wanna feel ashamed about my self, or always having feelings of shame and guilt. I want to become the guy that I've always wanted to be. I wanna meet a real woman, have hobbies and live for my dreams.

Today, the nightmare startes to fade away.

Here, with you guys, I feel comfortable about it and I'm pretty sure that I can find help here.
 
Hi Rodrigomarques,

welcome to the forum. It's great you found it because there is lots of good people and advices to be found here. Maybe start with writing a daily journal to keep yourself accountable and learn along the way. I'd also advise you to go through Tim Johnson's and Ryan's videos to learn more on the steps needed to break out of addiction. Best of luck.
 
yes i was sort of addicted to porn before high speed internet but it was NOTHING compared to addiction to high speed internet. that's when it became a full fledged mental illness.

before high speed internet i'd go rent videos at some video rental maybe a few times a month. it was easy to not over due it because it cost money and there was not a whole lot of places that even rented pornos. none of the big chains rented porn, because,well. the general population would have protested it.

that's why they wanted 5g so bad, cuz 80% of bandwidth if teenagers streaming high def porn and they needed more bandwidth.
 
Rodrigomarques said:
Hi guys,

I've been addicted do porn since I was 16 years old, today I'm 29. It all began when I started to have acess to high-speed internet. I remember back then, when I was in high school, all my classmates were going to parties and started dating with girls, and on the other hand, I was just longing for the weekend so I could be alone at home, and watch porn and masturbate like crazy. I didn't know that this could turn into a terrible addiction.

As I grew older, the addiction has goten worse. In the beggining of it, I could just ejaculate once per day, however as the years passed by, I could "blow it up" over 3 times. So during just one week, I could masturbate over 10 times!

Today, I realize how many years of my life I've wasted not only with pornography, but also with creating fake profiles on Tinder and Instagram, because I've never kissed a girl nor had sex with a real woman, so I needed to find a way to have naughty conversations with women, even if I had to make a fake profile on social medias in order to accomplish it.

Unfortunately, nowadays I see women as objects that I need to get in order to have sex with. Besides, the way that I see their bodies has changed
significantly. Today, the women who arouse me are the ones who have huge breasts and big lips like the majority of the porn actresses.

I simply can't take it anymore. I don't wanna waste another whole fucking year of my life watching porn, masturbating or objectifying women. Wasting 13 years is more than enough to me.

I don't wanna feel ashamed about my self, or always having feelings of shame and guilt. I want to become the guy that I've always wanted to be. I wanna meet a real woman, have hobbies and live for my dreams.

Today, the nightmare startes to fade away.

Here, with you guys, I feel comfortable about it and I'm pretty sure that I can find help here.
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We got you bro, all you have to do is have a strong resolve to never PMO again. Porn is really destructive, it really numbs you away from life into a screen. I hope you can quit and get a great life!
 
Rodrigomarques said:
Hi guys,

I've been addicted do porn since I was 16 years old, today I'm 29. It all began when I started to have acess to high-speed internet. I remember back then, when I was in high school, all my classmates were going to parties and started dating with girls, and on the other hand, I was just longing for the weekend so I could be alone at home, and watch porn and masturbate like crazy. I didn't know that this could turn into a terrible addiction.

As I grew older, the addiction has goten worse. In the beggining of it, I could just ejaculate once per day, however as the years passed by, I could "blow it up" over 3 times. So during just one week, I could masturbate over 10 times!

Today, I realize how many years of my life I've wasted not only with pornography, but also with creating fake profiles on Tinder and Instagram, because I've never kissed a girl nor had sex with a real woman, so I needed to find a way to have naughty conversations with women, even if I had to make a fake profile on social medias in order to accomplish it.

Unfortunately, nowadays I see women as objects that I need to get in order to have sex with. Besides, the way that I see their bodies has changed
significantly. Today, the women who arouse me are the ones who have huge breasts and big lips like the majority of the porn actresses.

I simply can't take it anymore. I don't wanna waste another whole fucking year of my life watching porn, masturbating or objectifying women. Wasting 13 years is more than enough to me.

I don't wanna feel ashamed about my self, or always having feelings of shame and guilt. I want to become the guy that I've always wanted to be. I wanna meet a real woman, have hobbies and live for my dreams.

Today, the nightmare startes to fade away.

Here, with you guys, I feel comfortable about it and I'm pretty sure that I can find help here.
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I'm so happy that you have come to your senses. We are in this together brother. Life begins!
 
Fenix Rising said:
Hi Rodrigomarques,

welcome to the forum. It's great you found it because there is lots of good people and advices to be found here. Maybe start with writing a daily journal to keep yourself accountable and learn along the way. I'd also advise you to go through Tim Johnson's and Ryan's videos to learn more on the steps needed to break out of addiction. Best of luck.
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Thank you very much man. Yes, I'll writing a daily journal here, I think it's gonna be really helpful!
 
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