I'm 25 years old, I first saw pornography when I was about 13 or 14 years old. I started using it habitually when I was 15, and I didn't have a successful reboot until after my 25th birthday (five months clean now!). So, I've been an addict for roughly ten years.are you willing to share information how long have you been addicted to PMO and to what extend…
Congrats on 5 months!!! c:I'm 25 years old, I first saw pornography when I was about 13 or 14 years old. I started using it habitually when I was 15, and I didn't have a successful reboot until after my 25th birthday (five months clean now!). So, I've been an addict for roughly ten years.
I consider the extent of my porn usage to be habitual. I watched porn almost every day, taking 1-2 day breaks maybe once a week. So, that makes roughly five porn-viewing sessions per week, and some of those sessions were binge-sessions that lasted all night, masturbating several times in a single session. I would usually have a binge session after trying to quit for more than a week or so.
relapse after a hard mode feel way worse then the first day of NoFap.I've tried… 3 'hard mode' attempts, hitting 90 days twice and 180 days once, but for some reason, every relapse afer reboot sends me to deeper compulsive spiral.
This is why I only have a laptop that is work issued these and it never comes out at home unless I get some sort of emergency email on my phone.I come from
PMO on magazins with 14-16y to every day twice with around 16.
Through
Drink- Party – sniff - smoke – Hooker or hook up – hangover and PMO : every weekend
Drink -Smoke 1-5 times PMO.: Working days
Using Enhancements toys, drugs for PMO ...
To
Getting sober but – PMO every day and edging for 1-4h adding various enhancement and drugs
Trying to quit P-Mode / MO-Mode deleting files and passwords canceling credit cards through away toys … rebooting just not hard enough...
now nearly 40 - 3 days PMO-Mode and no drugs I used them lately only for PMO so all is connected for me… and now I need to get P out of my life ( I had so much but it seems never enough)
hit my rook bottom after failing do get something important done for 3 days instead edged for 4h then O then 2h sleep for 3day in row on a cocktail of P on 4 screens and enhancements and toys … I am so messed up! And the worsed is I know the whole time how damn messed up, but still it can happen again no matter how discussed one part of my brain is about it the other will be able to perform these acts for ever. The good part needs to win and take control !!!!!!!!!!!!
Reading how people get to 90 and 180 days and then they go back? That makes me sad and fearful at my prospects. It started with phone sex around 1988. Hustler magazine’s and VHS cassettes in the 90s. 2 divorces on 3rd marriage and it’s the last one. So in the 2000’s it turned to internet hardcore porn the harder the better. And I push myself away from this wife also but this time she’s an alcoholic.I've tried… 3 'hard mode' attempts, hitting 90 days twice and 180 days once, but for some reason, every relapse afer reboot sends me to deeper compulsive spiral.
But my edging has been getting up to an hour I need to be strong so I can pick my wife up when she crashesReading how people get to 90 and 180 days and then they go back? That makes me sad and fearful at my prospects. It started with phone sex around 1988. Hustler magazine’s and VHS cassettes in the 90s. 2 divorces on 3rd marriage and it’s the last one. So in the 2000’s it turned to internet hardcore porn the harder the better. And I push myself away from this wife also but this time she’s an alcoholic.
I wake up last week and have an epiphany that I’ve been sleepwalking for the last 10 years of my marriage addicted to PMO once a day two times a day when it’s really bad. It’s been going on for a long time it’s been going on for a long time. I want my wife back I must forge a head it’s only day 4