After having a relapse, usually we regret our actions and we take an oath not to fap or watch porn again, and we stay off pm for a while too. But after some days do you start to fear that you'll eventually fall prey to pm again? That you can't beat the urge? Because I fear. I've been off pm for 2 days now and I fear that one day I'm going to relapse again. May God help me!!! I need to overcome this fear. This thought. No matter how hard I try, or how long I try. I always give up myself to this addiction. This has been my biggest regret in life.