Hi, Alan Collins It's unimportant how many times you'll relapse. The importance of it all is to try and never give up regardless of any circumstances, cuz' if you won't stop trying, one day you wake up and will make the decision of your life, what is really important to you, and the amount of effort and time you put on your life to get up, over and over again.. There's one little jiff in everyone's life, and it decides everything, in my point of view. You want to make sure what you want at the end. Soon you decide what you really want, sooner you'll succeed. Just think twice before relapsing, because it's not as bad as how you feel afterwards. It's like, you climb up on a rocky mountain and falling over and over and over again. Not very pleasant, right? It's basically a ladder of life, once you complete it, you'll fully able to enjoy the rest of your life. It is how life works, you gotta give something back. It's not like you want this, this and that, and yet achieve this, this and that at the same time. Patience, generosity, and virtue is your holy trinity, keep it, never underestimate your true inner power, since most people rejecting it with their disbelief and then complaining about why they actually "suck" in life. No offense to anyone, of course. Hope this helps even for a little, and may you achieve success in your life, my fellow fapstronaut!