How porn has changed me. How has it changed you?

From the age of 12-19 I can remember being: Social. Outgoing. Confident. Not afraid. Didn't overthink things I said or how I acted. Knew myself. Never questioned my sexuality. Good around girls. Kept my head high when I walked. Didn't feel insecure. Didn't care about being an "alpha" male or "macho". More competitive and aggressive.

For the last 3 years, from 19-22 I have become: Socially awkward and social anxiety. Lack any kind of confidence. Nervous. Anxious. Fearful. Questioned my sexuality. Have been diagnosed with OCD (HOCD). Negative thoughts. Terrible with girls. Submissive around other men. Look down when I walk. Feelings of inferiority. Nonexistent social life, lost a lot of friends. Overthink the way I speak and act. Feel a lot more feminine.

The difference I feel today compared to how i felt growing up is almost night and day. I am a shell of myself.