How strange have your fetishes become before you realized it was time to quit?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by wakingthelionsinme, May 28, 2018.

  1. wakingthelionsinme

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    I guess I can openly say it here, that I have evolved from human porn to animal mating porn as well as pornographic drawn images of video game characters
     
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  2. krazic07

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    transexual porn and animal porn also :3
     
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  3. Immature

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    tranny porn, but that's not why I'm trying to quit. PIED is why I'm trying to quit.
     
  4. wakingthelionsinme

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    That's also one of my reasons. I'm tired of nearing the point of sex only to find I can't get it up
     
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  5. Immature

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    Oh I forgot to mention that I love watching chick's (or tranny's) asses doing anything, and and also chicks (or trannys) giving blowjobs, whereas watching vaginal sex is just boring as hell. Naturally - because what fun could there possibly be in anything normal?

    I also got into scat for a while, but it didn't stick with me.
     
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  6. MasterRoshi

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    I won’t tell anyone except for my SAA sponsor the full truth, but for everyone out there in this forum, let’s just say, if there are 100 different genres of porn, I’ve seen EVERY single genre, decided I wasn’t into 2 of them and religiously watched the rest. (Think hard about what “every single genre” means)

    That said, I am 65 days sober from PMO and haven’t had many intense cravings. This is the longest sobriety I’ve ever had since I realized if I touched myself, it felt good (age 11). I’m 32 years old now.

    There’s no guarantees with this addiction, but I’m definitely happy I have this length of relief so far.
     
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  7. Immature

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    I am so damn old, I remember before they made kiddie porn illegal. There was a brief period when the industry was turning it out, and it was available in many "Adult" book stores, marketed like any other porn. For the most part it did nothing for me. But there was one piece of that shit that I bought and used once - and after, I was utterly horrified with myself, threw it out immediately, and never did any more. It was pretty soon thereafter that the laws were passed to come down hard on that shit, as well they should have.

    I don't think I would have used any of that again, even without the laws - but I'm damn glad they passed them.

    Man, I haven't thought about that shit in decades. All this terrible stuff keeps bubbling up from my memories, as I read here.
     
  8. The porn I was viewing had become increasingly violent, lots of rape porn.

    When I started planning in my mind how I could rape an attractive woman at the gym who I was lusting after, I realized I’m very f’d up and need professional help.

    I’ve been going to a counselor. Told him plainly the number one reason I sought counseling were the thoughts to really rape a woman. Also told him about the garage I’ve been watching. Just saying that out loud to another human being and hearing myself say it was a huge breakthrough in getting free of this crap.

    I seriously have no more desire to look at rape porn anymore and have no desire to hurt anyone.
     
  9. wakingthelionsinme

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    It's just hard as shit for me to give this up since all the porn I've looked at are all completely free and always available.
     
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  10. So, having fucked up sexually related thoughts of people you see and know is relatively normal when using and escalating in P use?
     
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  11. MasterRoshi

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    I would say yes. Our porn fantasy and over sexualization doesn’t stay on the phone or computer it lives in our minds, we then wander out into the world and there are moments that we become horny, and all of our sick thoughts pop up. The loved ones and strangers around us join the mental lust party.

    I have fantasized about every one of my wife’s sisters and mom, and every one of her friends and her friends sisters. Then going to Facebook or Instagram to masturbate to their pics. Then this would increase the sexualization of them, so next time we would hang out I would see them differently in my mind. They became nothing more than sexual objects. And I would constantly be looking for an opportunity to see a nippleslip or their ass or whatever.

    Same thing with strangers. I had a huge public fetish and also bdsm (including rape fantasy) fetish. So women walking around in skimpy clothing or with a certain “look” would play into my mental fantasies. Women became just sex objects and not human beings.
     
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  12. Porn affects different people in different ways. For me, it was getting to a point where just about everything was seen in a sexual way. That includes animals. I was so obsessed with sex and getting it. Since I’m a nerd, geek, and have zero confidence the only way I was going to get it was by prostitution or force.

    Since going to counseling I’ve been on the road to clearing my mind out of bad as I think about things that are helpful and good.
     
  13. Astrocastle420

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    That's one of the difficulties for quitting here... I love the time I have with my SO, but there are these 'fantasies' from the more extreme porn that I wouldn't even WANT to have in real life.

    I enjoyed them as stories. Acknowledging that written porn was still porn was hard for me to accept, and difficult for me to throw away...

    I find myself wanting to read and fantasize about situations that will never and can never happen in our life because it's a turn-on...

    How do we de-escalate from wanting all these scenarios and fetishes that aren't realstic?

    Good topic, Walking.
     
  14. RingoRules

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    I became addicted to sissy porn/tranny porn featuring attractive cute men who looked like women. I came to realize I had become bi-curious at 48. I discovered Tumblr and found many other men like me who had become bi-curious about sissies, and who were posting pics of themselves. I actually started taking pictures of myself and posting them there and a whole new obsession about posting my own sissy images began. I came real close to having a day of sex with a sissy I met on Tumblr. Thank goodness reason got the better of me, and eventually these desires subsided.
     
  15. arpyegap

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    The honesty in this thread is amazing. I've had many of the same feelings and thoughts and I think it helps to admit them. To admit that they are not healthy or normal. It seems to me that those thoughts lose power when exposed to the light of day. The challenge is finding a safe space to do that... SAA & NoFAP are good for that. I sexualized everything and everyone in my life... aunts, sisters, friends. I was sick. But, I am working hard to put that behind me.
     
  16. MasterRoshi

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    Family member fantasies were never off limits for me as well. Just wanted to add that to the truth in his thread.
     
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  17. CleanWater

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    I have to agree. It's part of what has driven me here. It wasn't just my wife. It was my mother in law, stepdaughter, when my stupid addict brain started questioning, the shit has gotta stop. For all their protection. And getting involved in an accountability place like this is a-one.
     
  18. I don’t think you should had went on Facebook and seeked our those Facebook pictures, you could have stopped at where you began fantasizing. But everything else, yeah, I twist everything I see into sex. I don’t even want to but I feel like my mind just gravitates towards sex, I don’t like it and it really holds me back socially.

    Seems like everyone’s thoughts are now hyper sexualized.

    Dude, thank you for this, you’re the only one man enough to talk about it. I feel like a monster sometimes, like some pervert and I question a lot of things... these thoughts are not right, not normal and not wanted but they persist, what the fuck!
     
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  19. MasterRoshi

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    If I had a choice in the matter I wouldn’t have :) but when I’m active in my addiction there is no controlling it.
     
  20. I understand, that pull, I hope I didn’t come off judgmental but I just thought that would’ve snapped you back into reality or make you conscious. Just becareful of what you do, don’t let yourself escalate brother
     
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