How strange have your fetishes become before you realized it was time to quit?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by curinghairypalmsyndrome, May 28, 2018.

  1. Theultimatefighter_21

    Theultimatefighter_21 Fapstronaut

    Surely it is. I'm hoping that i won't need a therapist to solve this, but it's hard, really hard to resist these fantasies... I'm using a girl that i like as a reason to stay here, in NoFap. I tell myself that when this all ends, i will be able to talk to her.
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  2. Calipornia

    Calipornia Fapstronaut

    I knew that I wanted to give up porn when I met a beautiful Woman, whom I'd thought could've been my wife. I struggled with foot fetish, forced fem, bdsm, sometimes scat and golden, amazonian, and granny. When I started asking the question what is God's will for me, that's when I started to undergo some serious healing from all my fetishes.
  3. Survivalist

    Survivalist Distinguished Fapstronaut

    Never give up! Things will take a while to come back on track.
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  4. Sardonic

    Sardonic Fapstronaut

    I never used to think what I am/was into was too bad, but looking back with (almost) fresh eyes has helped me realize why I watch(ed) the porn I did; I mainly watch(ed) videos of girls masturbating. I was so convinced, by age 12, that I was that ugly I would never get anywhere near sex that I just wanted to look at cute girls enjoying themselves like I was doing, almost as if that was closest I'd get to an actual girlfriend.

    As time went by I started watching BDSM and the more "extreme" solo videos as well. In recent years JOI videos became a favorite too. It's been 17 years and I still can't shake that "I'm so ugly I'll never get laid so I might as well PMO" mindset. I haven't watched any porn videos for ages, but I've looked at images, I've fantasized like crazy. It wasn't until I started trying to go without that I saw the effect it has on me.
  5. JakeWoods

    JakeWoods Fapstronaut

    I think this was the order my fetishes developed.

    • Striptease
    • Lesbians
    • Blowjobs
    • POV
    • Then started watching full blown sex videos
    • Developed kind of a Lingerie fetish (high heels... etc)
    • Anal
    • Abusive sex
    • Went through a phase of only watching asian women
    • Then tranny porn ensued
    • Interracial porn then took over. Black males with white, Latino, asian women
    • Gangbangs and Double penetration
    • Somewhere in here Femdom and cuckolding fits in
    It got to the point where only interracial porn would turn me on. I couldn’t even be bothered to watch anything else. And the guy had to be huge or it wouldn’t work for me... and that’s weird because I’m straight. I don’t think it was so much me liking big junk, but rather seeing the girl handle it...

    Anyway, time for things to change lol. I wanna get excited at a girls smile again haha.
    Last edited: Jun 7, 2018
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  6. Lesbian tit sucking
    Rough sex
    Hotel sex
    Riding a sybian
    Creampies both oral and vagina

    Luckily I never got into the tranny, gay and animal stuff. I find them extremely repulsive and disturbing. I have my limits and boundaries.
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  7. There was a time I said I’d never look at gay or animal videos. Porn can take you to places you’d never guess you’d end up. I wish I was still at the point in life when I found all porn repulsive and disturbing. Oh well, better late than never for me to get better, set up limits, and have boundaries once again.
  8. g2stop

    g2stop Fapstronaut

    Mine started with:

    Underwear catalogues
    Then phone chat lines
    Then nude pics
    Then solo masturbation
    Then lesbian
    Then soft core Male/female
    Then hard core Male/female
    Then group sex
    Then abusive sex
    Then teen sex
    Then teen abusive sex
    Then animal sex
    Then incest
    Then femdom
    Then bdsm
    Then squirting
    Then bukkake
    Then squirt bukkake
    Then cartoon porn
    Then porn parodies
    Then webcam interactive solo
    Then webcam interactive couple
    Then webcam interactive group

    Then escalated to massage parlours
    Then stripclubs
    Then escorts
    Then groups sex parties
    Then fetish parties
    Then bdsm escorts

    Wow I hadn’t realised how bad it had become
  9. g2stop

    g2stop Fapstronaut

    I think when we are aroused it is like hypnosis, we are very suggestible and therefore act out on commands and situations we see on the screen, this must have some sort of biological advantage but I am sure it wasn’t designed to be taken advantage of my things such as sissy hypnosis which creates a trance and arousal therefore multiplying the addictive/suggestive effects
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  10. hope breath meditate

    hope breath meditate Fapstronaut

    I am pmo addict for nearly 15 years and for the past 3 to 4 years I had slowly developed habit of watching girls humiliating guys then joi cei then spit porn then cuckolding, sissy hypnosis like that. I feel so ashamed of myself of what I have become. I am straight guy and yet I feel nothing by watching normal porn only these hardcore categories make me aroused.
    I am pmo free for 18 days now and I thought I might get cured. But since yesterday when I watch a hot girl I get strong mental images of the femdom, cuckold videos and porn stars which is making me too horny and aroused. Somehow I have hold my desires becoz I no it not normal. But I don't know how much longer I can control them. If anyone have any suggestions pls do tell. Even deep breaths are making me watch p.
  11. When I started to look at interracial involving those ghetto gang bangers that was when I realize it was time to put a halt on this. I mean if I see them in person I want to stuff them into an oven not to get off on them.
  12. u376

    u376 Fapstronaut

    I have to share this and I am ashamed of it
    First there were YouTube videos then normal porn then anal then interracial cuckold then old man young girl.......then I realized I have to quit this...
  13. MasterRoshi

    MasterRoshi Fapstronaut

    • gay,
    • gay daddy,
    • master/slave bdsm,
    • voyerism
    • all sorts of public stuff,
    • extreme gaping and stretching,
    • pee stuff,
    • sleeping people,
    • rape fantasy,
    • tranny,
    • semen obsession,
    • pain,
    • extreme degradation of me and others (this one was pretty bad)
    • and about 3 categories that I won’t publicly mention.

    All of these seemed to develop over time. I’ve been watching porn since age 10 so some have been with me from the beginning which makes it pretty confusing, but the longer I stay sober the less I think about some of them. Others are deeply engrained and will probably take longer to normalize.
    Last edited: Jun 5, 2018
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  14. Gettingbetter23

    Gettingbetter23 Fapstronaut

    Asian lesbians
    Asian lesbians strapon
    Asian Shemale
    Asian BDSM
    Asian Gangbang

    and in real life:
    BDSM escorts
    BDSM escort and regular escort at the same time
  15. Stories about lesbians
    Lesbian porn
    Blowjob porn
    Lesbian foot fetish
    Glory Hole
    Solo girls
    Tranny (for a short time)

    Strip clubs
    Massage parlors

    Managed to stop the real life hookers/parlors/strip clubs at the start of the year which saved me a ton of money

    But the porn increased as a result. And then I started sleeping with these two girls and had major performance anxiety and went soft intermittently with the girl I actually had feelings for - weirdly not the one I was just sleeping with for fun. Also had delayed ejaculation.
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  16. recoome

    recoome Fapstronaut

    for me it wasnt the porn but the acting out, the sex addiction n becoming a pervert that made me realize i need help.
  17. arpyegap

    arpyegap Fapstronaut

    Totally agree... it was the same for me. It just escalated to a point where I wasn't just watching... I wanted to participate & that is scary
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  18. RRH

    RRH Fapstronaut

    Search of rape videos
  19. Kimpossible9

    Kimpossible9 Fapstronaut

    During the second year of my addiction I had some long streaks of NoFap and I really thought that I'd be fine and I could actually quit.
    But boy was I wrong.:eek::D It lasted for another year, this year being my 3rd.
    But actually my fetishes were at their peak the very first year. Animal and tranny porn. What a shame:oops:
    But hopefully this time I can overcome it I'm still young and I feel the power in me to overcome this mess
  20. curinghairypalmsyndrome

    curinghairypalmsyndrome Fapstronaut

    That would be a red flag for me

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