I heard plenty of times it isn't good to compare yourself with others who are more successful than you, but I cannot I feel like a total failure. I am not trying to sound like I am jealous, because I am not, I know successful people worked hard to get there, but it's like the progress I am making is too small, I know inside I can do so much better and it truly frustrates me. I have idols that I followed throughout the years who are mainly game developers or programmers and I just don't get it how they can go very far in life while I struggle fucking waking up in the morning and battling with brain fog, low energy, depression and any noises or thoughts easily distracts me from my goals, that are important to me. Are they all practicing semen retention? I guess they do... It just gives this illusion that they figured it all out and me in the end I will forever be stuck in the same goddamn state. I just wish that Nofap is the thing that will fix a few of my big problems I don't see a way out if I am constantly feeling like shit all the time. I try my best to be healthy, walking long distances, eating quite well for a Vegan including supplements, sleeping enough, taking good care of myself and not trying to be too hard on myself. Anyway I feel helpless. I had maybe a four day streak and I relapsed a bit tonight but I will continue to beat this habit that's making me weak.