Khri$$ Javan
Fapstronaut
I'm a very lively flamboyant cheerful person, I love to laugh and be the center of attention yet sometimes I can come across abrasive with a bad attitude. I have a temper and I fear its only getting worse.
A little background of me. I was a porn addict for nearly 2 decades. My curiosity as a little boy is what led me down the rabbit hole . My teens is when my addiction took a turn for the worse. Back then(mid 00's) they're wasn't no PMO/NOFAP forums so what I thought what I did was normal, I was very misguided. Pops wasn't in my life, been the only child so I grew up very lonely. When it came to socializing and expressing myself I struggled because I was underdeveloped compared to other kids @ the time plus It didn't help I was frail AF(still am lol) so I got picked on ALOT but I aint gone shit up here and lie and say I didnt do my fair share of bullying and teasing. Shit happens we all did things we were not proud of. Top that off with me not "fitting" in any social setting
Oh it gets even worse. My 20's is when things really took a dark path. I was so lost and depressed. Long story short meet the wrong crowd of people got hooked on hard drugs like methamphetamine, crack cocaine. Imagine being alive but spirituality emotionally being dead that's what it was like for me for 8 years. Put being a daily porn addict in the mix you have person off his purpose in life. I thought about ending my life several times during that time. Going what I when through made me so much stronger person emotionally, spiritually. I've gained so much wisdom in that time period.
Sorry for the ramble got off topic. Now that I complete stopped watching any porn or M/O. I'm dealing with ALOT of anger. I channel my energy to activities that I enjoy doing but some days better than the other . Im really going through @ the moment and been struggling for a couple of months. I have no job currently so I'm not bringing any source of income. Some semi truck blindsided my car so I'm dealing with that. I never had a girlfriend and only a few sexual encounters.Im in FUCKING heat, I want to MATE Im not getting those same sexual desires reciprocated back. I refuse to be celibate for the rest my life and Im never going back to PMO so what other choices do I have? It's me making me very aggressive and want to FIGHT. Im not a bully I dont go looking for a terrible, Im a small dude, size does matter in most cases but I have so much rage that Im mentally prepared to get knocked out or knock someone out lmao!
A little background of me. I was a porn addict for nearly 2 decades. My curiosity as a little boy is what led me down the rabbit hole . My teens is when my addiction took a turn for the worse. Back then(mid 00's) they're wasn't no PMO/NOFAP forums so what I thought what I did was normal, I was very misguided. Pops wasn't in my life, been the only child so I grew up very lonely. When it came to socializing and expressing myself I struggled because I was underdeveloped compared to other kids @ the time plus It didn't help I was frail AF(still am lol) so I got picked on ALOT but I aint gone shit up here and lie and say I didnt do my fair share of bullying and teasing. Shit happens we all did things we were not proud of. Top that off with me not "fitting" in any social setting
Oh it gets even worse. My 20's is when things really took a dark path. I was so lost and depressed. Long story short meet the wrong crowd of people got hooked on hard drugs like methamphetamine, crack cocaine. Imagine being alive but spirituality emotionally being dead that's what it was like for me for 8 years. Put being a daily porn addict in the mix you have person off his purpose in life. I thought about ending my life several times during that time. Going what I when through made me so much stronger person emotionally, spiritually. I've gained so much wisdom in that time period.
Sorry for the ramble got off topic. Now that I complete stopped watching any porn or M/O. I'm dealing with ALOT of anger. I channel my energy to activities that I enjoy doing but some days better than the other . Im really going through @ the moment and been struggling for a couple of months. I have no job currently so I'm not bringing any source of income. Some semi truck blindsided my car so I'm dealing with that. I never had a girlfriend and only a few sexual encounters.Im in FUCKING heat, I want to MATE Im not getting those same sexual desires reciprocated back. I refuse to be celibate for the rest my life and Im never going back to PMO so what other choices do I have? It's me making me very aggressive and want to FIGHT. Im not a bully I dont go looking for a terrible, Im a small dude, size does matter in most cases but I have so much rage that Im mentally prepared to get knocked out or knock someone out lmao!