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Dude, I would give my left nut to be 23 again, you've got plenty of time. The fact you're thinking this way and doing this now is a great sign. You can only improve from here.
There's a million different things I could suggest to you but I'll keep it brief.

Bad times don't last forever.

One day you're going to wake up and be happy, I guarantee it. To get to that point you'll likely have to go out of your comfort zone a bit and make some connections. There's no science to it; take a class in something, join a reading group, make small-talk with someone at the gym, heck - play a MMORPG. Do something that reminds you that we're all the same thing. Human.
If you're really feeling depressed I would talk to a therapist. Mine has helped massively in not only making my problems seem manageable, but giving me the tools to love myself again after years of depression and loneliness.

I wish you the best of luck man.

 

I wonder how venting your thoughts made you feel. I've made posts similar to yours displaying frustration, but simply writing them down and sharing them seemed to help. Is that the case for you? In any case, I'm going to respond assuming you feel the same as when posting.

You wont be lonely forever. That would be ridiculous. I know what it feels like to be locked up indoors right now. Most people do right now. Everyone is dealing with this covid shit. I absolutely 2nd what @todolist wrote. Just talking to people for WHATEVER reason is likely to make you feel better. They are momentary pleasures, but they are uplifting. You don't have to leverage contact with other people with some ulterior motive. Just having some interaction will give you basic pleasure, similar to eating. You need to do that shit.

I think having that sense of urgency that time is slipping away that you are describing, I think that's a good thing. You wont live forever. But your life is not over yet, what good will it do to claim that it is? It will just drag you down more.

 

There are probably deep psychological reasons which caused you to live this way. None of these issues are your fault, but you should try to identify and address them.

 

Have faith that there is value in doing recovery work. Simple things like journaling, exploring your pains, shortcomings, strengths, hopes and dreams. Plan your future for the next few years, months and weeks. Identify when you are most vulnerable and why, and trust that the work you do in all these areas will improve your lot over time.

I see recovery has more to do with sorting every area of my life out and filling it with activity throughout the day. When I have been low, doing stuff is often the last thing I want to do, but that's when I dig deep and fight even harder, as I knew I'd be making the best gains when I was struggling most. Struggling is a part of my life, so I just try and learn to accept it as par for the course.

Live as fully as possible and keep up the good work!

 

Hello Don

Thank you for sharing!

I have seen some good comments here and I just want to reinforce a lot that has been said.

First of which is that life presents challenges, this is standard part of life. There is no avoiding it, adversity will occur. This you need to accept.

It is key to have goals, this balances out the negatives in life. You may wonder how. The reason is that we all need purpose. Working towards goals and achieving them in incremental stages allows us to experience success. And this success often comes in the face of adversity. The feeling of accomplishment really helps to balance things out, because you now have some ups instead of just a bland existence highlighted by downs.

You noted that you wasted your teen years and feel like you are wasting your life at 23. Reality is that most men do not have their shit together by age 23. As one persons said, they would kill to be 23 again and I echo that sentiment. Most of us at 23 had no real idea where we were heading. Life was kind of happening to us instead of us actively living life. You can consider yourself somewhat lucky to be so introspective at age 23. Like you said, there must be more to life than a paycheck. You need to chart you path and take action!

As it relates to your path there are some key areas you need to work on.

1. Your physical well being ( Diet / Exercise / Rest)
2. Your mental well being (Spiritual / Emotional / Social)
3. Financial well being (Income Generation / Wealth Building / Retirement Planning)
4. Relationship well being ( Family / Friends / Significant other / Children)

I highlighted Significant other & Children because these are not always attainable. Forming a long term loving relationship is a challenge for most. But I encourage you to remember that life is about the Journey, not the destination!

You asked why should you continue with NoFap and Exercise, trust me if you feel let down by your progress at this point. Just try to imagine looking back when you are 43 and realizing you have made no progress, you are fat and out of shape and have spent a significant portion of your life staring at a screen masturbating. Like I said, life is about the Journey, don't wake up one day and realize you never took any steps on that Journey.

Covid has things all messed up now, but engage where you can. Even if it needs to be virtually! Me and a couple guys have a a support group going. We meet once a week to talk, you are welcome to Join if you wish. We are on discord. PM and I will send you the link the link to join. This offer is open to all!

Remember, as humans we all feel lonely at some point. This is normal, but never resign your self to a life of loneliness. Get out there and live, there will be ups and downs but this is far better than hiding away.

Deysonn

 

You sir have an infinite value as a human being, your enemies are trying to destroy your value. Your enemies are the ones who created this world for you; a world where you have been separated from a life where you are part of a community that knows you and appreciates you for your existence. Your enemies are those who have decided to take away your liberty of going to the gym.

It is not your fault, and remember it is not the fault of the flu either. It's the government and the banker tribe behind them who have enslaved you. Try your best and keep the spirit. Do not let the enemy discourage you.

You are doing great abstaining from pornography, a weapon created by your enemy to make you docile. Keep up the fight!