how to stop watching degenerative porn??? pls help!!!

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by WanderTruth, May 29, 2019.

  1. WanderTruth

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    i have gone for 27 days before giving in. I stay up all night and watch the evil end let it control me. The thing made me feel terrible and the worst is that I watched some hardcore P. To be honest, if i watch vanilla or something normal, i dont regret that much. But the fact i keep coming back to those disgusting P is what me cry and even consider to kill myself! I can't explain why I am into those kinds of P because they are against my morale and life's perception (maybe because some defense mechanism of my psychology and childhood, I cant tell you the details, sorry).... . I hated myself for watching them. Because of the awareness that i am turned on by such devils, I always look down on me and think that I am not deserve for any girl. Which again lead me to dive deeper into P. After being Fapstronaunt, the frequency of my PMO decrease drastically and after a relapse-usually with 2/3 O and hours of edging, I can go on for about 2-3 weeks. And then I would be back to square one. Beside my goal to reach 90 days, I consider not watching those hardcord P and returning my mind to normal. Does anyone have the same problems? Can you give me advices? Many thanks to you all in advance
     
  2. hd47

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    Evil is behind porn bro,
    I have same feeling when i watch such things, dont give up try to find hobbies meditate etc...
    I really hate all who are Behind porn.
     
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  3. InnerFaith

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    stop watching all porn, stop watching even soft core things.
    also, use a software that can block pornography from your devices. i would recommend netspark
     
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  4. How does this Netspark dealy work? It seems aimed at families, is there a 'porn addict' setting?
     
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  5. InnerFaith

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    basicly i took a week or so to play around with the filtration levels, and afterwards i created a random password from some password generator site, and put it as my password for the interface.. now my password is well kept in some personal diary online that only i can see. the next step i plan is to give away the password to a friend.. i always avoid looking at the password or trying to memorise it, luckly its full of funky speical charcters, also i use it both on my pc and my mobile phone
     
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  6. InnerFaith

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    also, one of its strongest features, i think its the only one who knows how to filter inside youtube.. so no more grey area questionable stuffs...
     
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  7. So it's an automatic filter? I can set it to filter pornography and their own analytics would deny me access to sexual content?

    Would I also end up not being able to listen to ultra-blasphemous death metal? I don't want to go that far, hahah :p
     
  8. InnerFaith

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    Hmm.. I mamage to listen to all kinds of music on spotify.. On easy level filtration you will have most of unsexual youtube.. But also you can easily find alot of teasing stufs.. One step higher level it blocks those stuff realy good.
    Youtube is a big issue for nofappers.
     
  9. InnerFaith

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    Also, its beter to give up on youtube metal if it means youtube softporn as well
     
  10. True, I'm just wondering if it would block bandcamp releases with crude titles-- black/death metal is characterised by some pretty gruesome and lewd album/track titles :emoji_goat:
     
  11. if you hate it, then don't do it
     
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  12. Mr. McMarty

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    There's nothing wrong with you per se, you're just doing what a normal porn addict does. Your brain wants more and more and more reward and it can't get it from looking at the same thing day after day, so it has to get newer and newer and harder and harder P. You're not messed up. You just have to reset and heal your mind, your brain has to heal itself. It will take a while.
     
  13. randomname3

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    It sounds to me like you have a serious addition. Frankly I think P blockers are missing the point. You probably know as well as I do that when you relapse, the actual battle was already lost LONG before O, before M, and before viewing P. Before a relapse, there's always a moment where you chose to surrender to the animal. (The animal isn't itself evil, but it's diseased by this addiction)
    The majority of this journey doesn't even involve P,M,or O; it's almost all a 2-20 second battle with the animal that happens when you see or feel something triggering. Focus on each individual battle, with no thought or worry of the battles to come. You're on zero today and going the full 90, so that means your battle cry is the date "August 28!"
    You cannot relapse before that date. So whenever you're triggered, remember your battlecry.
    Fight on brother!
     
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  14. WanderTruth

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    I will try. 90 days or death... agreed!
     
  15. WanderTruth

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    I agree with you about the escalating desire. But I think I need to get rid of the hardcore P. I mean I only liked it before PMO and after that... you got it. Thanks for your reply, fellows
     

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