MasturTainer
Fapstronaut
The practice of transmutation is so powerful a force that I now believe it is not taught to people on purpose.
These past 30 days have completely changed my life forever. I've never gone this far meditating and semen retaining. I've had a couple wet dreams (I reset the counter for wet dreams), but other than that, no conscious ejaculation.
Let me just list off the benefits so far:
When I started retaining earlier this year (failing at 20 days in March) I kept hearing about this thing called "transmutation". What was transmutation? Did it happen naturally? Do I really have to sit in the lotus position and chant while following Jeebus- er, I mean Buddha?
Not at all. It has nothing to do with religion or religious practices whatsoever.
The problem I kept running into was that everything I read about transmutation was drenched in eastern theological jargon like "chakras" and so on. There were some sources that were good and secular, but very few. If you want a really, really good (non-religious) book on SR, check out The Semen Retention Miracle by Joseph H Peterson. But beyond that, there's not much non-religious stuff out there, other than the odd post on reddit. Even there, the kooks run wild with all sort of religious jargon, and frail looking Indian yogis mixing semen retention with a lot of mystical sounding stuff. Not my thing.
So basically, I'm writing this because I think there is a lack of practical, secular (or non-religious) perspectives on semen retention and transmutation. That's what I hope to do here by talking about "transmutation", and how I've started to use it to face my fears, and change my life.
The first step in transmutation is... surprise: don't ejaculate.
Seems simple, but this is actually the hardest part. Especially if you're addicted to porn. If you're addicted to porn, stop. Porn is a version of population control, really, crowd control. It is the THE circus in the phrase "Bread and Circuses".
To not ejaculate, I found it useful to first quit porn, and then, have a meditation practice. The meditation will help you focus on the urge as it happens.
Eventually, with enough meditation, which is nothing more than sitting and focusing on your breath while keeping your other thoughts at the periphery, you can actually pull the energy back inside you before it goes too far.
To get started on meditation, I highly recommend "The Mind Illuminated" by Culadasa. This one has zero nonsense crap about "reincarnation", "chakras" or anything like that. It's just a beginners guide to meditation, and completely practical. When I started using it, I would read parts of a chapter, and then meditate practicing that skill in order to internalize the information.. I read chapter two and three over and over again in the beginning.
When you lust, you are stimulating a lot of pleasure in your mind and body. To stop lusting is to stop expending this energy and attention, and focus it on something else. It's really hard to do this, but you have to master it in order to retain for longer than a week or two. Otherwise, the urges will get to you.
Step two is to release and become your emotions. Seriously, if you don't release your emotions by accepting them, you are going to have a really, really bad time. Emotional energy like fear, anger, hatred, love, pity, has to be released as you do SR. Otherwise it will build and build and build inside you, and it has to come out!
In order to release and become your emotions, the first step is to discover the emotion. You do this by sitting and exploring your feelings. Meditation helps you build awareness of your feelings. It's hard when there is denial. Denial is such a strong force that I have no prescription for it, other than to wish whoever has it, gets over it eventually. But if you can get past denial, then you are 95% of the way there.
Then after discovering the emotion and feeling it, you accept the emotion. I was always pushing emotions away because I didn't like them. But I soon started to just say, "I accept this emotion" for every single one, and then imagined myself as having that emotion. When I did this, I would feel a rush of energy, and sometimes even pain, as a part of myself I had separated came back into myself. As Walt Disney said, "The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else".
I would actually reverse that and say, "The more you are like yourself, the more you like yourself". All you guys who struggle with self-hatred: when you accept your emotions completely, that completely disappears. You can't possibly hate yourself when you accept your emotions, no matter what they are, and no matter what you've done. The feeling is like wearing a glove that fits absolutely perfectly. You feel enshrouded in confidence, even if you know you have no accomplishments or anything. Like you're driving a car and each component of it you know exactly where it is, and how it's broken, what stress it's under. If becomes you, and you realize that even if there are parts of you that you don't like, the real "you" is this amazingly complicated thing that is nothing like you thought it was. Trust me. If you think you have had a fucked up life or sexual fetishes, you just have no idea man. Those things don't matter at all when you become who you really are.
Coincidentally, that's the final part of step two. First discover the emotion, then accept it, and, finally: become the emotion as you choose. So become your anger, but put it towards some purpose (anger is very explosive, an absolutely incredible fuel, especially for being confrontational). Become your fear, but let it become anger (fear is transmuted directly into anger). Become your love and pity, and sadness, and let it become your desire to comfort others, to be close with somebody and heal and hold them.
By becoming these emotions, you release the energy within you and can channel it, which is step three.
Step three is the final step of transmutation. You turn your emotional energy into real world action.
My first memory in life is my dad giving me a vicious beating, and yelling in my face. I don't even remember what I did, I was around 5 or so. But you see, I built a lot of anger and fear from my childhood. This was just one of many humiliations and beatings. SR forced me to face and admit my emotions from these abuses. Everything from anger, to fear and humiliation. Today, I wake up every day angry as hell... and I love it, because, when combined with SR, it's pure fuel.
I also confronted my father, and it turns out that men who beat children are complete pussies when confronted as an adult. SR helped me do that, because I do not put up with bullshit any longer. He's passive aggressive and not really a man at all. He's also a sexual criminal, so his passiveness is probably related to his cooming addiction. I felt like I was bullying a child, honestly, and because I'm a decent person, it made me feel a little bad. But if he gets in my way, I will destroy him.
That's how I feel because I accepted my fear, and was able to turn it into anger.
Without SR, I would have been terrified to confront my father, because I never was able to transmute my fear into anger. But something has changed over the past few weeks. The SR gives me some form of baseline energy, which is transmuted into emotional energy, which is transmuted into action. By finding and accepting my emotions, I have started to become them. By becoming them, I have started to channel them into real-world actions. This is transmutation:
I've seen so many posts that display the most pitiful and errant thinking on this topic, if you'll excuse me for saying so. They say things like "I shouldn't feel that...", or "I need to control my emotions", and so on. Another beauty is, "I don't know how to feel about X..."
They think that what they feel is a choice!
But the only choice is in how you channel it into your behavior!
Every time I read something like those sentences I get a twinge of annoyance, because it's completely wrong. You can't control your emotions. At best, you can prevent your emotions from controlling your behavior. But you can't control your emotions. Your emotions control you, whether you are aware of them or not. As somebody once said, "We are not thinking machines that feel, we are feeling machines that think." So give up on "getting rid" of your anger. Become your anger. You deserve to be angry. You've probably been hurt, disrespected, let down, abused, kicked around. Anger is a healthy, normal emotion.
People medicate themselves with alcohol, porn and give themselves low energy, so they can't transmute or even really feel their anger. That's what the people who control this world through fear and intimidation don't want: people who are exactly as angry as they ought to be. The people can't be as angry as they ought to be, partially because they keep cooming every day. Why do you think porn is free?
So that's how it's done. To recap:
1) Don't Ejaculate
2) Accept your emotions and become them
3) Let your emotions influence the power of your behavior, especially anger
This is about as secular and non-mystical as I can make it. I really hope somebody reads this and gets something out of it. I hope you are able to see the magic that I've recently started to experience. It is unlike anything else. It's like being completely born again. Completely free and unafraid.
There's a lot of pain along the way. There was for me. Maybe I'll put up a post about my whole childhood and life. I wrote one up, but thought it would be a bit exhibitionistic for me to post it.
Learning to not ejaculate takes a while. Learning to overcome denial of emotions takes a while.
But remember what Ingres said: "It takes 25 years to learn to draw, one hour to learn to paint."
Overcoming your urges for ejaculation and denial takes a long, long time, but it is 99% of the battle. When you win there, the rest of the battle takes only two weeks, and you can start transmuting.
Wish you good luck
These past 30 days have completely changed my life forever. I've never gone this far meditating and semen retaining. I've had a couple wet dreams (I reset the counter for wet dreams), but other than that, no conscious ejaculation.
Let me just list off the benefits so far:
- Incredible insight into myself and others - seriously. Hi-Definition views of my own and other people's souls, intentions, vulnerabilities, motivations.
- Endless amounts of energy for workouts and work
- Confrontational as hell. People do not understand who I am
- Rarely take anything personally
- Adopt a "me-first" mindset (What do I get out of it? What exactly do I want?)
- See through nonsense and bullshit immediately, cut it from your life
- Limited satisfaction from passive activities
- Much better sleep, skin, activity, focus, energy
- Little to no anxiety
When I started retaining earlier this year (failing at 20 days in March) I kept hearing about this thing called "transmutation". What was transmutation? Did it happen naturally? Do I really have to sit in the lotus position and chant while following Jeebus- er, I mean Buddha?
Not at all. It has nothing to do with religion or religious practices whatsoever.
The problem I kept running into was that everything I read about transmutation was drenched in eastern theological jargon like "chakras" and so on. There were some sources that were good and secular, but very few. If you want a really, really good (non-religious) book on SR, check out The Semen Retention Miracle by Joseph H Peterson. But beyond that, there's not much non-religious stuff out there, other than the odd post on reddit. Even there, the kooks run wild with all sort of religious jargon, and frail looking Indian yogis mixing semen retention with a lot of mystical sounding stuff. Not my thing.
So basically, I'm writing this because I think there is a lack of practical, secular (or non-religious) perspectives on semen retention and transmutation. That's what I hope to do here by talking about "transmutation", and how I've started to use it to face my fears, and change my life.
The first step in transmutation is... surprise: don't ejaculate.
Seems simple, but this is actually the hardest part. Especially if you're addicted to porn. If you're addicted to porn, stop. Porn is a version of population control, really, crowd control. It is the THE circus in the phrase "Bread and Circuses".
To not ejaculate, I found it useful to first quit porn, and then, have a meditation practice. The meditation will help you focus on the urge as it happens.
Eventually, with enough meditation, which is nothing more than sitting and focusing on your breath while keeping your other thoughts at the periphery, you can actually pull the energy back inside you before it goes too far.
To get started on meditation, I highly recommend "The Mind Illuminated" by Culadasa. This one has zero nonsense crap about "reincarnation", "chakras" or anything like that. It's just a beginners guide to meditation, and completely practical. When I started using it, I would read parts of a chapter, and then meditate practicing that skill in order to internalize the information.. I read chapter two and three over and over again in the beginning.
When you lust, you are stimulating a lot of pleasure in your mind and body. To stop lusting is to stop expending this energy and attention, and focus it on something else. It's really hard to do this, but you have to master it in order to retain for longer than a week or two. Otherwise, the urges will get to you.
Step two is to release and become your emotions. Seriously, if you don't release your emotions by accepting them, you are going to have a really, really bad time. Emotional energy like fear, anger, hatred, love, pity, has to be released as you do SR. Otherwise it will build and build and build inside you, and it has to come out!
In order to release and become your emotions, the first step is to discover the emotion. You do this by sitting and exploring your feelings. Meditation helps you build awareness of your feelings. It's hard when there is denial. Denial is such a strong force that I have no prescription for it, other than to wish whoever has it, gets over it eventually. But if you can get past denial, then you are 95% of the way there.
Then after discovering the emotion and feeling it, you accept the emotion. I was always pushing emotions away because I didn't like them. But I soon started to just say, "I accept this emotion" for every single one, and then imagined myself as having that emotion. When I did this, I would feel a rush of energy, and sometimes even pain, as a part of myself I had separated came back into myself. As Walt Disney said, "The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else".
I would actually reverse that and say, "The more you are like yourself, the more you like yourself". All you guys who struggle with self-hatred: when you accept your emotions completely, that completely disappears. You can't possibly hate yourself when you accept your emotions, no matter what they are, and no matter what you've done. The feeling is like wearing a glove that fits absolutely perfectly. You feel enshrouded in confidence, even if you know you have no accomplishments or anything. Like you're driving a car and each component of it you know exactly where it is, and how it's broken, what stress it's under. If becomes you, and you realize that even if there are parts of you that you don't like, the real "you" is this amazingly complicated thing that is nothing like you thought it was. Trust me. If you think you have had a fucked up life or sexual fetishes, you just have no idea man. Those things don't matter at all when you become who you really are.
Coincidentally, that's the final part of step two. First discover the emotion, then accept it, and, finally: become the emotion as you choose. So become your anger, but put it towards some purpose (anger is very explosive, an absolutely incredible fuel, especially for being confrontational). Become your fear, but let it become anger (fear is transmuted directly into anger). Become your love and pity, and sadness, and let it become your desire to comfort others, to be close with somebody and heal and hold them.
By becoming these emotions, you release the energy within you and can channel it, which is step three.
Step three is the final step of transmutation. You turn your emotional energy into real world action.
My first memory in life is my dad giving me a vicious beating, and yelling in my face. I don't even remember what I did, I was around 5 or so. But you see, I built a lot of anger and fear from my childhood. This was just one of many humiliations and beatings. SR forced me to face and admit my emotions from these abuses. Everything from anger, to fear and humiliation. Today, I wake up every day angry as hell... and I love it, because, when combined with SR, it's pure fuel.
I also confronted my father, and it turns out that men who beat children are complete pussies when confronted as an adult. SR helped me do that, because I do not put up with bullshit any longer. He's passive aggressive and not really a man at all. He's also a sexual criminal, so his passiveness is probably related to his cooming addiction. I felt like I was bullying a child, honestly, and because I'm a decent person, it made me feel a little bad. But if he gets in my way, I will destroy him.
That's how I feel because I accepted my fear, and was able to turn it into anger.
Without SR, I would have been terrified to confront my father, because I never was able to transmute my fear into anger. But something has changed over the past few weeks. The SR gives me some form of baseline energy, which is transmuted into emotional energy, which is transmuted into action. By finding and accepting my emotions, I have started to become them. By becoming them, I have started to channel them into real-world actions. This is transmutation:
Retain sexual energy -> Emotional Energy -> Real World Action
I've seen so many posts that display the most pitiful and errant thinking on this topic, if you'll excuse me for saying so. They say things like "I shouldn't feel that...", or "I need to control my emotions", and so on. Another beauty is, "I don't know how to feel about X..."
They think that what they feel is a choice!
But the only choice is in how you channel it into your behavior!
Every time I read something like those sentences I get a twinge of annoyance, because it's completely wrong. You can't control your emotions. At best, you can prevent your emotions from controlling your behavior. But you can't control your emotions. Your emotions control you, whether you are aware of them or not. As somebody once said, "We are not thinking machines that feel, we are feeling machines that think." So give up on "getting rid" of your anger. Become your anger. You deserve to be angry. You've probably been hurt, disrespected, let down, abused, kicked around. Anger is a healthy, normal emotion.
People medicate themselves with alcohol, porn and give themselves low energy, so they can't transmute or even really feel their anger. That's what the people who control this world through fear and intimidation don't want: people who are exactly as angry as they ought to be. The people can't be as angry as they ought to be, partially because they keep cooming every day. Why do you think porn is free?
So that's how it's done. To recap:
1) Don't Ejaculate
2) Accept your emotions and become them
3) Let your emotions influence the power of your behavior, especially anger
This is about as secular and non-mystical as I can make it. I really hope somebody reads this and gets something out of it. I hope you are able to see the magic that I've recently started to experience. It is unlike anything else. It's like being completely born again. Completely free and unafraid.
There's a lot of pain along the way. There was for me. Maybe I'll put up a post about my whole childhood and life. I wrote one up, but thought it would be a bit exhibitionistic for me to post it.
Learning to not ejaculate takes a while. Learning to overcome denial of emotions takes a while.
But remember what Ingres said: "It takes 25 years to learn to draw, one hour to learn to paint."
Overcoming your urges for ejaculation and denial takes a long, long time, but it is 99% of the battle. When you win there, the rest of the battle takes only two weeks, and you can start transmuting.
Wish you good luck
The two books you recommended are in my list Books to read now 
