I had a break up a few weeks ago... I think I lost my girlfriend due to M addiction!! We were in a long distance relationship, although away physically, we were very close to each other emotionally.... We talked everyday and shared every detail of our lives with each other, one who cud be called a ‘Confidante’. Since a few months I have been addicted to M. and now I realise how my interest in her was fading away, daily chats soon became a practice of leaving a few texts which would be checked in 2-3 days!! And I was a FOOOL to NOT NOTICE IT AND TAKE ACTION!! I’m soooo fuckin useless, fortunate to have a gf and yet an inglorious, unrighteous bastard to loose her!! And all of a sudden one day she says, its not working!! That’s the moment my alarm rings!! And before I can convince her its OVER.. Since a month now I have realised how M is affecting my life ADVERSELY!! I want her back. But idk how!! I just feel like telling her how I was flowing away from her in this vicious current of M and that I’m changing now, I’d treat her as a QUEEN. Although we wud talk intimately, I feel fuckin asahmed to talk to her about My Addiction Of M, and I think she would find it Vulgar, and TOTALLY ABUSIVE!! I now have no BEST friend in my life as close as her. I LOST A DIAMOND FOR A ROCK THAT LOOKED LIKE GOLD(fool’s gold: FeS2, Iron Pyrites) im in tears. I want my darling back, I can’t get over her, I can’t think of myself with any1 else. I can’t meet her due to lockdown, I just Feel like telling my dad about this and asking him to take me to her house and just get her back....but i dont wanna bother him with another thing in life!!!! Our parents do soo much for us, and yet we fail them by wasting time looking at some silly B**** and spilling the seeds of life!! PM.IS.USELESS. Fuck M, Fuck P, Fuck this Industry!!!! Go to hell you hole- less arses!! I PLEDGE TO NOT M AGAIN.