I have found the addict part of my brain justifies PMO. It’s always what gets me when I relapse. I’m starting this forum thing now as I have wanted, and tried on and off to stop for the past 4 years. Additionally, I hate even more how porn has manipulated my sex life. I have failed more times than countable, that’s for sure. My life is honestly pretty great, I’m with an incredibly beautiful and amazing girl, and we have been invited to attend an incredible university together. However, my addiction has kind of dampened a lot of that happiness for me. It simply makes one less satisfied with life. It has ruined many parts of my life. The way I view women, my sexual satisfaction, etc. I would do many things to simply shut it off. I wish there was a button I could use to erase those porn desires from my mind. What I would give for that! I want to stop more than anything. Even being upfront with my girlfriend and asking for her help with accountability didn’t work in the long run. My hope is that I can overcoming it through multitude outlets. I still need to talk about it. I’m hoping the last step is is involving myself in this community. I have been clean for about a week now, so that’s something. Please feel free to ask questions. I believe that talking about it helps me. Additionally, I have a question: If I’m rebooting, should I not have sex? Also, most of my relapses happen when my girlfriend is away (the relationship gives me a lot of motivation) during spring break, and it is likely that she will be gone. What should I do or focus on? I want to achieve the most effective and long term solution. I want to make it go away. I need it to. p.s: my girlfriend helped me find this forum, so we work as a team on this. Just some context.