I’m not trans but I’m addicted to the idea of being a sissy.

First of all, you need to understand that PMO changes your mind, that's why you feel normal when you're not horny and nasty feelings when you're.
Try to keep yourself away from it. Every time those thoughts come send them away. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. But practice makes perfect.
Understand also that this is an addiction, like drugs. It's not easy to get rid off, but don't give up either. Little by little things will get a little better if you put some effort.

Find motivation why you want to do this. Why you don't want to feel urges like that. It really helps. It helped me

 

Yes this is absolutely true and I can relate. I had the same obsession as you and it used to make my mind feel completely crazy, leading to lots of suffering and confusion. I can tell you for a fact that stopping watching porn has taken me away from that place and helped me a better person. The sooner you stop the sooner you will overcome this, you may occasionally get those urges but over time they will go away. I only get them once or twice a month now. Good luck mate, you got this!

 

Lot's of people are in this boat with you. You aren't alone

 

so it came naturally ? you didn't have the idea put into your head.

the ulgy truth and people will probably attack me because apparently you cant say anything bad about nofap or they will burn you at the stake but anyways: nofap can be dangerous because it improves your sexdrive, your thoughts just amply, one wrong trigger and suddenly your worse than you ever been, it has lead me to escalation

psychotherapy probably help, its a mind problem

 

In my experience with this, the two lifestyles aren't really compatible, so you'll end up basically having to choose to be a masculine dude or a sissy. If you want the thought to go away, that's probably going to be a tough sell, but if you can get yourself into a place mentally where you truly do want them to go away, at minimum you can try to not think about it - when a thought pops into your head about it, literally think something aggressive toward it, like 'fuck you that's not who I am' and then go do something that will not leave you a lot of mental freedom to think about things.

Another thing that I find helps a lot with this kind of stuff, is if you really do want to be a masculine guy, then start doing masculine things - get into weight lifting, eating healthy, etc. and just be all-around more productive with your life and focus on things that help with that. What you'll find in time is that the sissy stuff will fade a bit, especially if you start looking at porn less often and masturbating less - you'll begin finding just the idea of some girl-next-door type female that you know of, just being in her underwear will start giving you an erection - seeing a healthy girl in a bikini at the beach will make your dick twitch a bit and the extreme fetish stuff like sissy, etc. will just not carry as much weight in your mind.

And I'm not a proponent of going monk-mode. IMO, masturbation is very healthy it just comes down to not doing it too much, and staying away from porn as much as you can.

 

Hey man I’m going through a similar thing to you, currently on my first reboot at 65 days.

this whole thing of being treated like a girl is very much like a cinema, the idea of it is arousing in our head but as soon as reality hits we realise that it’s not who we are and what we actually like - a porn induced fantasy.

hard mode I think is the best way to mitigate this as much as possible.

 

This is indicative of such fantasies (for lack of better words) being completely abnormal and unnatural. It also screams not only porn addiction but also conditioning and indoctrination.

The fact that this thread has 1,600 views – even if it's over the course of two years – is worrisome to say the least.