I’ve been doing this for 5 years

I prayed the novena to Our Lady Undoer of Knots and she seems to be helping me out, helped me find this site I think.

 

Hi!

I am addicted for more than 20 years now, with a cycle of about 1-2 weeks, very seldom more weeks of strength. The best phases I had are 6 weeks no pmo after a holy confession and 3 month no pmo - this long term phase was caused by a female colleague, I did not want her to notice that I am addicted.

But now I start the "month of God" - means september no pmo. I will make an own thread for this to invitate to join!

Let's fight together and get together out of this!!!

 

I did this for over two years before experiencing real success. I’d go two or three weeks, or sometimes even 30 plus days without PM. But then I’d give in. I grew indifferent to quitting. Then 90 plus days ago I surrendered completely to God. I told him I can’t quit on my own. I just love PM too much. The honest me knew, and told a God, that I loved PM More than God. He took away the strong desire to look at PM. I still have some impure desires, but they are nothing like they were.

One thing I’d consider is to reflect on just how much you love PM and how much you really want to give up PM. I do believe if you loved God more you’d quit. That isn’t at all a personal criticism. I was and easily could be again in the same boat. And I understand habit or addiction. So does God. Your will has to change. This could take time. This could mean lots of failure. But you need to love God more than PM in order for you to make the choice to not engage in PM for the sake of God.