My fiancée and I have been together for almost eight years now. For almost all of our relationship, I’ve been addicted to PMO. She used to be “in the mood” constantly, but I always turned her down. I preferred P to my actual partner. I feel terrible, but I’m finally starting to beat this addiction. Since starting this recovery, I’ve been more attracted to her and wanting to make up for lost time. Problem is...she’s never up for it anymore. She’s been rejected so many times by me that not having sex has become the norm for us. She’s not really open to talking about it either. I’ve tried multiple times the past few weeks. When we do have sex, it’s honestly not great. I’m dealing with premature ejaculation lately, so she never “finishes.” It’s embarrassing. Took me a lot to admit it even heeled anonymously. I feel so guilty. I’m at a loss at what to do, and I have no one else to talk to about this. Hoping I can find some advice here.