I almost did it again

I almost did it. I was back at it again. I wanted to relapse really bad. I felt the urge to do it. I began edging and wanted to watch Porn again.
My brain was telling me to go ahead and do it because that is what I want. To just go ahead and we'll start over again because it's not been that long.
I was about to but one small part of myself was telling me to stop because I've done it again and it did not end up well afterwards. It felt great for the moment but as time passed and the initial thrill was fading away, the horrible truth started to appear.

So I stopped myself and honestly, I feel a lot better now that I stopped myself. P & M has ruined me for a long time. If I can do it and get away from it, then so can you.

Keep on fighting it and in the end it will all be worth it. One small victory could mean a lot down the line