hi,my name is wxy,i am 37 years old .english is not my first language. anyway,if you ever meet me or see me in real life,i am typical semi-successful guy ,college degree,wife,kids ,job and average health. but deep down i am some how a loser.i will tell you why I never convinced a girl to have sex with me in my life except one time which was my first the girl gave me "the clap" cuz i forgot to practice safe sex spent few days with the urologist treating me. i think that scarred me about women. everything changed in uni,i had full load of study courses ,rarely found time for girls .but my roommate was a playa bringing new girl every other week,he used to allow me to double team her(with her permission ofcourse) found out years later my roommate has ED and was on sexual pills everytime we do the double team. fast forward 6 years,at work sometimes i work hard and avoid unnecessary social situations where i have to interact with my superiors.most days though i am just keeping an eye on watch so that i can go home. i have very few friends 3 or 4 ,except those work collegues i fail to make new friends i am ok with this since previous friends turned out to be parasites.my fav time is when i am writing on forums ,watching youtube,reading. the only thing good going for me is spirituality i wake up at 5 every morning do meditation ,go jogging ,come home,eat breakfast and go to a job that i hate but that pays my bills. i view women as sex objects,when i told with women(which is rare) we would be discussing events at work,weather what ever topic that comes up but deep down i am thinking about how she feels at bed. i lust after girls even my sister in laws.i am bad at sex itself i had been a chronic masturbator for 20 years and found out i am premature ejaculator 1 year ago.i rarely last 5 mins. i have been through alot but does it matter now? nope what matters now is how i will enjoy my remaing half life of 40 years.