I AM FED UP OF THIS

so rn i am sitting on my couch instead of being in my class i wasted my four hours edginf i had an urgue while texting with a girls on insta and then i coudnt contrl myself wasted all 4 hours then i decided to take a cold shower but i also took my mob with me i video called some random girl on insta and was so near to relapse but then the cold water stared running from the tap i stopeed guess thre was sum pre cum my mob fell off in the water and i felt pain so much pain in my penis cuz i forces my self to suddenly stop but then again after taking a shower after 30 mins i got a text back from someone and again i started edging that pain didnt frekaing stopped me and now i am here im on day 11 btw my best streak was day 19 im still wanna continue my streak so i deleted my instagram becsue i spend more than 9 hours on my phone i also have insomnia no matter what i do cant sleep at night also deleted that stupid datng app i also burned my finger with a matchstick as a punishment trust me guys edging isnt worth it this was the reason i got failed 2 times and am still stuvk in class 10 despite being 18 ive never had anyone and have alwasy struggled withlonlines but ive got god by my side and will overcome this shit and be a FUCKING MAN