TotalOverload
New Fapstronaut
I am 26, have been on and off nofap for two years now. The best I have done so far is two- one month streaks and countless weekly streaks. But I have had it with this mess. It makes me so sad that I am hooked to something so pathetic.
I am going to comit to quitting my addiction for good now. Whatever accountability it calls for, I accept it. While I can't undo all the damage it has done to my life, I am hopeful I can close this book, once and for all.
I am beginning this journey by cutting off the usual suspects that ruin any streak. Looking to up my physical activity level by taking long walks in morning and evening outdoors. Just hope to walk myself to the point that I am exhausted and hit the bed and go to sleep straightaway.
Bedroom is dangerous place to feel bored in. Gonna make the bed itself a strictly sleeping only space. I want to cut off any association I might have of my bed with fapping.
Gonna do my research on what to expect on first week again and update this diary tomorrow.
It always begins with the first instance of folding to urges. Urges kicking in at the wrong time and brain being habituated to urges and almost expecting me to cave in automatically screws with my streaks even before they begin.
What I mean is, my brain expects me to do certain things automatically before bed time. I don't even question it when the said time arrives, I only think of it afterwards. Clearly mindfulness towards the internal dialogue is missing here.
I am going to comit to quitting my addiction for good now. Whatever accountability it calls for, I accept it. While I can't undo all the damage it has done to my life, I am hopeful I can close this book, once and for all.
I am beginning this journey by cutting off the usual suspects that ruin any streak. Looking to up my physical activity level by taking long walks in morning and evening outdoors. Just hope to walk myself to the point that I am exhausted and hit the bed and go to sleep straightaway.
Bedroom is dangerous place to feel bored in. Gonna make the bed itself a strictly sleeping only space. I want to cut off any association I might have of my bed with fapping.
Gonna do my research on what to expect on first week again and update this diary tomorrow.
It always begins with the first instance of folding to urges. Urges kicking in at the wrong time and brain being habituated to urges and almost expecting me to cave in automatically screws with my streaks even before they begin.
What I mean is, my brain expects me to do certain things automatically before bed time. I don't even question it when the said time arrives, I only think of it afterwards. Clearly mindfulness towards the internal dialogue is missing here.
