I am in the worst phase of my life

Hi guys,

I'm entering the third year of my battle against porn addiction, and I think I've never been this far from my goal.

There have been many periods where I thought like I was finally on the right track, that I had a good grip on everything... I somehow got pegged back each time, and this has sucked all my hopes, aspirations and strength out of me. I'm basically a dead man walking. I can't resist anymore, I'm so confused that I don't even know where to start with to get back on track, I'm angry all the time, and the simple thought of starting it all again not only frightens me, but makes me live an absolutely shit life (I've given up on fitness, I don't see my friends anymore, etc).

Not so long ago, I had 3 startup projects, a graduation to look forward to, and lots of other things. Suddenly, I feel like I'm on the cusp of a depression.

Could someone please help me to get back on track? This is the worst phase of my life by a mile.

With a violated soul and a heart torn to shreds.

Thank you.

 

Of course hxh. I learned many things, which is the reason why I feel hopeless. Despite what I learned (and I think I have pretty much learned and tried every trick/method possible), I'm still completely unable to change anything. I have all the tools and tricks, there have been many times where I felt like I was finally getting it right... But no.

I think that it would take an eternity for me to tell you everything I tried, in which circumstances I failed (and nearly succeeded), etc. The only thing I can tell you is that I'm absolutely exhausted. Despite being a very positive guy who loves giving advice to others, I'm starting to accept the fact that I'll never manage to get rid of it. I know I should not, but I can't help myself.

i've got no inspiration whatsoever, and the prospect of trying again with a method that has proved to be a failure literally makes me want to throw up.

Could you tell me what has worked for you?