I am not new to NoFap. I have known about it for a few years but didn't start taking it seriously till last year. I have had multiple streaks throughout my year and a half of participation. 21 days, 5, days, 30 days etc. My highest so far has been 41 consecutive days no PMO or sex what so ever. Lately though I keep falling off the horse. I'll do 4 days relapse 5 days relapse, rinse and repeat. I have done meditation, sought religion out again, spirituality, tried focusing on hobbies you name it. I never use porn for more than 15 minutes a session and when I relapse it's usually 1 or 2 that day followed by an almost weeklong streak. It's not about the frequency but I want to quit to have a clearer mind and stop the fantasizing and focus on becoming a healthier person in mind, body and spirit. Sometimes I forget my Why and that is the foundation of quitting any bad habit. I rationalize and give in and then immediately following O I start googling for answers to my problems. This has been going on since I started. I don't know how to feel about this anymore. I'm just so confused and need guidance.