I AM NUMB , 7 days into recovery .

One week is about to complete and no fapping at all .
I don't remember the last time I went clean for that long .
I can feel a mix of emotions , neither very happy nor sad . Its a kind of emotional numbness . Few times I find myself amused by the fact that after repeated failures I managed to pull this feat , but most of the time it's totally neutral .
Triggers doesn't seem to have much effect on me , I am handling it quite well .
Even while enjoying some sensual/SEXY video song I don't get aroused as earlier .
There is a sense of security in me , and now I have started thinking more about myself , about my future .

Though I won't say that now life has become a beautiful experience because it's not .
I don't feel very motivated , kind of low on energy and not very ecstatic .
But one thing is sure there is less commotion and more calmness .
Also there is always some sense of accomplishment , as its very very unusual for me to stay away from P and M for one whole week .

I am seriously looking forward to maintain the status quo for as long as I can .
Though I am yet to witness any dramatic change .
Lets see how it goes , I am optimistic .......