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I am ready for the challenge

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by vijay, Sep 13, 2013.

  1. vijay

    vijay Fapstronaut

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    Hello:

    I am a new member to this webpage. I am willing to challenge myself to quit porn and masturbation. I am sure about quitting porn forever but not very sure about masturbation. But I am willing to give this a try because I do agree that masturbating will make it harder to quit porn. Here is my background story and my motivations.

    I am 27 years old, have been watching porn since I was 14. I started masturbating around the same time. At the beginning, I was masturbating to fantasies about girls at my school, in magazines and in my neighborhood. I got introduced to porn by a friend. In some ways, I felt better masturbating to porn than girls I knew because it made me feel weird when I masturbated to girls, many of whom I was going to see or talk to, the next day. It used to reduce my self-esteem. Slowly, I got addicted to porn and by the time I was 17, I started masturbating multiple times a day(3-4 times). I knew it affected my life. But I was not sure if porn+masturbation itself or the guilt about doing it was the real culprit. I decided it was the guilt and continued masturbating to porn for several years, until now. I have never had a girlfriend, sex or even a kiss.

    Now, I have come to treat masturbation as a daily habit like brushing teeth or eating food. I masturbate before my shower in the morning, after I get back from work and before I go to sleep. I do it even when I don't have a hard-on. I just do it because I know it will give me a shot of dopamine which will make me feel high for a few seconds when I cum. But I realize it is affecting my life too much and masturbation is not easy anymore. I need to have access to novelty in porn that I watch. I feel like being controlled by my habits.

    I have concentration problems, problems with flirting with girls and feeling confident around them. I want to change. A few months ago, I started going to the Gym to build muscle and been eating 3000 calories a day to gain weight. I gained 17 pounds in the last 3 months. Now, I weigh around 148 pounds at a height of 6feet(I want to gain more). But I realize that it's not just my slim appearance but also my confidence which makes it hard to flirt with girls. I think taking up this NoFap challenge can make a more significant difference. I want to boost that confidence level, my concentration. But my most important goal, is to be able to build self-control. I hope I can achieve it by taking up this challenge. I am not banking on it to happen, but I am willing to try and find out. I will be happy that I at least tried.

    I would be happy to know your thoughts/comments,if any, about my goals and story.
     
    Last edited: Sep 13, 2013

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